How do I become more bold and get the courage to make life changing decisions? I don’t like where my life is going right now. I’m 21 and I want to change my path completely. I always used to choose something that seemed “stable” rather than what I actually wanted to do, or let my parents choose for me. Now I feel like if I don’t make my own decisions I won’t feel fulfilled. I’m interested in video games, voice acting and music. Should I even try and take courses? 

Life

Sharing one’s feelings on instagram stories, how is it attention seeking? It’s not! People are really just trying to make it here, just let them be. It’s not cringe, it’s not embarrassing. Just please live and let live.

Adulting

Acting selfish, not caring, emotional detachment seems like the move. They only care when you do them wrong so f*** it, we can like we strangers without the starting over part.

3am Thoughts

I think I am using marijuana to help me with depression. Now I am scared of that is affecting my work / or in general life . Or is it the pandemic lonliness hitting me. I am not sure anymore where I am. Am I Lost?

Depression

After taking a six months break from everyone, ive started to feel good, her memories are fading away and i think i don't need anyone anymore. I don't wanna impress anyone, don't want anyone to understand me or sympathise with me. It's just now i enjoy my own company bc most of the people out there are fake. Still miss her. Yeah she wasted so much time of mine but i don't regret falling for her, never will.

Relationships

After almost 2 months after the break up the pain started to dilute, but I got pretty drunk one night and sent her a message, something that I deleted almost immediately as I realized my mistake. The next day she calls because she saw that message and makes a huge deal out of this. Ignored her but called her the next day to tell her that the reason why I called was indeed because I've missed her but my alcohol destroyed my principles and I shouldn't have done that ( she got in a relationship a day after we broke up with a friend that she told me it's just that a friend). She proceeded to tell me that I'm a robot without feelings and all the girls will think this about me, because I was always so serious ( That happened only for the last month because of personal issues and stress ). Then I send a long text with feeling and things that I've tried my best and even if I didn't said always things like "I love you" I always felt it. I just got left on read.

1 day later blocked her, I'm an asshole ?

If you can't do great things....
Then do small things in great ways🧡🙂

Coming Out

I'm sleepy and tired  , I want to sleep but my brain don't let me nor does my heart. There's kinda voice comes from my inner self don't sleep.I feel guilty whenever I try to sleep. 

so im really missing one of my friends..we ended our friendship..we were online friends so ive never met her in person..im not even kidding but not an hour will go by without me thinking about her and i know i cant contact her because she blocked me..i dont really have any other option other than to move on even though i really dont want to.. its so hard when i cant stop thinking about her. any ideas on how to stop thinking about someone you miss??

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