Ana @moonchild333
how can I come out? last year on my birthday I told my mum I wasn’t Christian she kinda accepted me she told me to wear a cross a few times but after I didn’t do it she stopped.
my mum knows about me liking girls, well yes but no she knows but she might think I regret sleeping with my best friend do I? no I don’t but it happened at such young age I think that I ruined my own life, of course, what I did is connected to what happened to me when I was even much younger than that. I’m planning on moving away from this place when I’m old enough and have money for it. so if she doesn’t accept me it won’t bother me I just don’t want her to yell at me or tell other people. when I told her I wasn’t Christian she IMMEDIATELY called her friend for advice and didn’t even ask me if I wanted to tell her friend, her friend is very close to us and I’m close to their children. but they’re racists and homophobic so I try to avoid them. her friend wanted to test me, well I think that way. they said IN FRONT of me that gay and lesbian people were dirty and poorly raised WHILE looking at ME, they were looking at me for my reaction and I couldn’t do anything about it, I felt uncomfortable and couldn’t move and speak. I felt gross and wanted to cry. I couldn’t do anything I can’t protect myself or the people that they talked shit about. I have never been able to say what I thought because no one asked me for my opinion, I just want to tell her I like girls without my heart beating so fast that it’s the only thing I hear. I’m scared to say what I think just because she won’t think the way I do. she said that I’m really open-minded and yeah I am but she isn’t trying to change. my mum asked me to correct her opinion if she’s wrong? she has a right to have her opinion but I think it’s wrong to judge or talk shit about other ppl just because they are doing something that you don’t approve of. how can I teach her to be open-minded and accept me? how can I be calm and confident when asking her stuff like this? please help me
