I’m feeling awful
you?
I am feeling lost, overwhelmed, and empty.
I don’t know how to really define this emotion, it’s kind of weird. It’s like I am angry but I can’t unleash it easily, I also am losing self-esteem yet I know I have to love myself. I am scared about how will I turn but I lost interest in what’s happening in my life. I wish I was gone, that none of what I went through happened, but a part of me wants to survive, I want to live. I can’t picture the future anymore, I am letting go of all of my desires. I feel so much pity for my old self. Though I don’t even remember what I used to be like. My hate for my parents grew so much but I pity my mom sometimes, it makes me feel disgusted.
Why? the things I’ve been through, my family, my own self, my hope or may I say my greed to live a normal life, the trust I had in myself that I could give myself a better life? “Would I have been leading a nicer life if my situation wasn’t the same?”
