how am i feeling?.... let's just say that complicated, exhausted, confused, and sometimes even numb too. And when i just try to figure out the reason behind me feeling all of this nothing comes to my mind like it's blank in there. So i try doing other things to calm myself or to explain it better i just distract myself from my mind or whatever. 
i just felt like sharing what i am constantly feeling these days and let it all out, maybe talking to strangers will help getting some perspective.

Confusion

hi i am new here and basically going to use this website to express my feelings anonymously. i feel like the happiness that ive been feeling lately is all fake. i am happy. but i can feel that its just a normal happy word. im tired to have to pretend im happy for the sake of others. i dont feel appreciated at all. i always listen to my friends problems but they never listen to mine :D i need someone to talk to but there is no one i can talk to. i definitely not going to talk abt my probs with my parents siblings nor friends. and now ended up keeping it to me myself only ;) and it hurts. it does hurt. but what can i do though ? no one is going to listen anyways. sometimes feeling like killing myself. but im glad i am still on my right mind. not because they will be sad if im gone. of course not ! because they wont haha. but i will burden them again.

Exhausted

I just felt I'm looser, I'm a useless thing...



Frustration

End it nowwwww

3am Thoughts

Life hasn’t been feeling real lately 

I wish there was some real life magic that'd make me disappear

I am just depressed like any other day...but the sadness I'm feeling today is something else, I feel like I am slowly dying inside. I was planning on going to a therapist at the age of 18 so when I leave my home but it feels so tiring to be here, it feels like I am slowly suffocating. I don't have any interest in any of my hobbies anymore all I do is play video games, sleep, and do hw at the very last minute, I wasn't like that but I guess I'm drifting away from the things I loved to do. I really want to change that but it's really hard too...I promise I am trying but I always feel like giving up, I keep feeling like all my effort is not worth it for anyone...I don't even get the "good job you did good" or "I am proud of you to keep it up" non of my parents say these things to me. I want to prove them wrong and that I can do it, but without their support, I feel numb and stupid for even trying something I tried many times but failed. It's not my first time trying to keep up the good work. I just want to be happy...I want to be okay again

I am dealing with a very traumatic situation and would like to talk to someone about it.  The thoughts bouncing around in my head make it difficult to focus on anything else and actually cause quite a great deal of pain.  Talking about it has helped in the past but my close friends are asleep at the moment and I also don't have more than a couple who I would feel comfortable opening up to.  Definitely 18 + only, please. 

The stressful situation isn't an emergency or anything that initially comes to mind when reading the first sentence.  It just involves close friends, living situations, and typical but traumatic things that happen in typical relationships, friendship and other.  I've always found that I can't deal with those thoughts in my head without hearing them out loud and have always had someone to talk to about them up until right now.

First time using the site, so apologies if this is not what this is for or I am inadvertently breaking any unknown rules

 hy.....strting somethng new frm today , lets see if i cn control myself and stick to it. i hugged myself and softly wispered that i love you and i kinda felt warm n my eyes turned wet. idk wat is it. just dont noe if i hav anyone in my life to say it to me.....i want to fell something,infact anythng....some sort of affection, some wanting, some belonginf....i was judging myself whn i felt warmth from my own voice and my own touch. is it wrong? or m i doing something whch shouldnt begin.  is it normal? i dont have any answer. i just knw that right now i have only darkness externally..... i do send love outside myself in hope of recieveing aatleast a part of it. but i end up being alone. i want to love eveyone who needs it /requires it......i noe its wrong to expect anyone to love me back but in reality u want to be loved back, to feel that warm touch, someone to ask if u r tired.may b i was not in love but a desperate relation with the world. 

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