Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

Honestly I feel so bad and I’m just so tired of life and being a junior in school is so hard. I just wanna kill myself. Tmw I got a quiz and then next week I got other tests that are rly hard and it’s just so hard and my mom isn’t helping. She keeps telling how I’m unworthy and how I don’t have good grades, well if u see here mom I’m depressed and u don’t care and u don’t want to accept the fact that I’m sad and wanna kill myself. I also told how I’m feeling these emotions to my sister but she acts like nothing is wrong with me. And to make things worse I got a “friend” that keeps ignoring me and keeps leaving for another “friend”. I’m thinking everyday of killing myself and I’m just so sick and tired of how I feel and these thoughts never stop. I genuinely want to kill myself but I’m trying so hard not to cause I love my young brother even tho I rly hate him sometimes, I can’t imagine what he could go through if I did kill myself cause he loves me so much. I’m just here trying to live listening to frank ocean and crying. Idk who will read this but pls ur not alone. If u feel like this pls call the suicide prevention line. Unfortunately, I don’t have in my country cause they don’t believe that mental illness is important :(
This month isn’t a good month :(