hey wanna talk?
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Hi
hey buddy. how you doing
Not okay
Feeling numb , Disappointed, lost kind of feeling
I feeel ya. kinda feeling d same
this numbness is so strange.
Let me explain then Few years back I was dealing with anxiety and depression. But with help of meditation, I felt better and came out from that situation. I was doing better after then. But 2019 I met a person at my workplace and started liking each other. After few months we met I came to know about that he’s getting married to someone else and lied to me. Not much but we had some awkward moments between us and that was d most hateful and disgusting memories I have. So I decided to ignore that person totally. But he forced me to continue this friendship in future. So that was kind of mental harassment. I tried 💯% not to be in contact But A disaster happened in my life again
I lost my dad in this pandemic, and during this tough situation that Office guy helped me like in many ways. Again I felt that same anxiety kinda feeling when I lost my father , but as a friend he was there for me all the time. Then after 3 months he got married. The day he got married he invited me. That was the most insulting thing tho but as d same time most hurtful situation came. Now I m feeling like I lost my self respect. The guy played so very well that now ever if he would do anything wrong to me I don’t even say a word to him because he helped me once
I love my self so much I know. I cannot tolerate anything unfair to me. But situation came like that I never expect. I feeling numb hollow. My anxiety issue again coming back. Donno what to do now
if someone helps you at a certain time, Its not compulsory that you have to please them every now and then.
Remember he helped not did a favour.
You are a strong woman, who love herself. I know gradually you will figure this out. 🖤🖤
I am extremely sorry to hear about you loss. You had been thru alot.
Years back I was kinda in same situation, there’s someone who really helped me alot & I use to feel that this person is my mentor, ma saviour.
But at tyms, when he did certain things to me if doesn’t feel right. Still I use to convince myself, that he did alot for me so its my turn to payback and how I can be so selfish.
Trust me girll, it eat u up from inside (I know you are feeling the same).
Then one day while we were in a moment, words slipped out of him “I used to kill the emotional void inside me. I had been using you as a rebound. To make myself feel valued and loveable”
That person (over even ur colleague) won’t be having bad intentions initially for us. But with time its all about choices.
Gradually I started drawing boundaries, yes its hard cuz at tyms I feel so selfish, but again Why to keep feeling miserable for someone else. 🤗Now m back to being the same confident person who love myself.
M sure one day (very soon) you will be the same
Yaa may be
