Breakup

nobody sees me crying out for help. they just see me being weak. I hate feeling weak but I am done with it. I am tired of the hurt. I dont want to feel the pain anymore. i had written a goodbye letter to my father. i am giving up. i just want to feel okay for once

PTSD

sick of ppl 

Social Anxiety

Who is here fan of kaisi yeh yaariyan?


3am Thoughts

I was in a search of a friend so that with her i can share all the unshared feelings… And now I think it’s not a platform for that!

Other

Why is it so difficult to deal with, why can't I just expect that my parents don't love each other anymore? I can't tell my mom about my anxiety because she's the one that gets mad at me for almost having panic attacks in shoe stores. "Why are you so stiff?" "Your not even looking your just standing there like a bo bo." BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE EVERYBODYS LOOKING AT ME LIKE IM GROWING A SECOND HEAD. My sisters 9 months old and I can't believe that one day she might have to go through this. It breaks my heart

Anxiety

Hi, i needed someone to talk to and share what i am feeling without revealing my identity and not definitely being judged. Hope i Have doing a right form.
I am a woman aged 30 married 7 years back. I love my husband. I guess i still do. I am a normal woman i eat normal food and i have normal hormones like any other. But my husband is not like other men. Within first few days of marriage i understood that he s not much interested in romance. But he was being involved.
Sex between us gradually reduced to once a month or only when i ask for it. After a year of marriage he suddenly stoped responding. I decided to wait and see if he will show interest. Months passed, years passed. I was getting mad. I used to cry and sleep most of the night. Fight with him. He knew what exactly i was thinking but he decided to keep quite.
But other than that we were happy couple. Going out, movies, eqt out, pub and all… everything was perfectly normal but that one thing. But sometimes whenever i used to go deep thinking i was getting mad. After 3 years i started talking openly and asked him to get himself checked. Coz there was pressure from family to have a baby and even i wanted a child.
After multiple fights and crying, after our 4th wedding anniversary he finally said he s fine but he was shy to begin. So i helped him feel better and we had sex…!! Life wasn’t any better. His interest level was low only. After couple of months i got pregnant and boom. We are strangers on bed again. I gave birth, baby is 2 years old. And yet we are strangers on bed and extremely happy couples in front of others. And roll models to some too… now i think that he s never going to change and either i have to choose this life or leave him giving my child a different life when there is no father. Which i can’t imagine of. I want my baby to have a normal happy family. But what should i do. Whenever everyone says romantic couple, i get a sharp pain in my heart.
He loves me. He s not gay nor having any affair. He know he has problem. Every month i fight he accepts and he asks for time to change. And he ll be the same person from the next day. He s a gentleman. He respects everyone and treats me well. He s addicted to tv and phone. But he hardly gets time to spend infront of tv these days. Whenever i think of leaving him, he cries holding my hand asking for last chance. He doesn’t have parents and all he has is me and our child. That is the main reason i stayed with him from the beginning of our marriage knowing his condition.
Now me… i love him so much. I obviously expect him to love me and express his feelings. He never hugs me or kiss me unless i ask for it. Only i have to do or ask. There’s no such cute romances in our life. It never was there. Hug from back, kiss on sofa, playing in kitchen, shower together… such small things really matters and it’s all just a dream for me… i can’t see any romantic movies or songs. I immediately break down. Day by day i am going into depression. Sometimes i think of having an affair. I really think of it. And i even told him. But i dont want to do that. I dont want to have that guilt till i die… i am very good looking women so is he. When i go out even with child every men turns and looks at me. So many colleagues of mine appreciates my beauty and talks about my good dress sense, and being fit. But my husband never appreciated. If whenever i ask , he will just say you are always beautiful. And that’s it.
Now after reading my fate, please help me… tell me what should i do. How do i live this lifeless marriage till i die?? I want my child to be happy and get love from both parents. But i dont know how long i can survive in current condition.

Depression

hiii theree anyone, mind sharing any advices/tips on the proper ways to take care of our gadgets (especially smartphones n laptops). ANDD alsooo maybe share w me any links/articles?

College

Im having one of the worst existential crisis. I kind of just feel like theres a big L on my forehead perpetually. There is so much going in my head i can even explain.

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