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Mx Shay @sxkurxchxn

Hiā€¦ so I know I said everything is over but I have this group chat with Me, K and S

K started talking to me from there so I never got a chance to move on and I donā€™t want to ignore herā€¦ I talk to her there nowā€¦ But I donā€™t know what to doā€¦ Should I let it goā€¦ or still have hopeā€¦?

Also, I made posters on how fishing nets are killing whalesā€¦ and that the oceans could be empty in a few decades. I put them up in my society. I wanted to share them here but Idk how to put images :(

Comment if yā€™all want me to put all the info in a diff post or if you know how to add images

So basically I want to start trying to help world problems specially climate change because if we donā€™t help it in about 20 years cities could be deserts, the sea level would riseā€¦ and ice from the Himalayas is also melting

since Iā€™ve been working on all of this, I also started informing S and K about this on the group chat but the thing isā€¦ K said Iā€™ve ā€œchangedā€ Idt Iā€™ve changedā€¦ Iā€™ve just come to know about what world problems there are and want to help themā€¦ and then she put a message saying ā€œI liked the old you betterā€ but then deleted it

I donā€™t understandā€¦ Why would someone not like that theyā€™re partner wants to help the world and make it a better placeā€¦ is that so wrongā€¦? Like did she like the bad girl side of me better?

She even asked
ā€œWould you still like me if Iā€™m racist?ā€ I said ā€œnoā€
ā€œWould you like me if i was rude?ā€ I said ā€œnoā€
ā€œWould you like me if I was selfish?ā€ I said ā€œnoā€ againā€¦

then later she kept thinking I was lying to her about somethingā€¦ i forgot what- after that I said ā€œNothing can change the way I feel about youā€ because sheā€™s said it to me before-
then she said ā€œMe being racist, rude and selfish canā€ like WHAT!?!?

thereā€™s been other times when sheā€™s asked me ā€œHow long do you think this will last?ā€
I said ā€œI want it to last foreverā€
she said ā€œBut Iā€™m sure thatā€™s not possibleā€ and ofc that hurt meā€¦

later she asked me the question again I said ā€œNot that long because of our current situationā€
she said ā€œdonā€™t say that- you just killed me-ā€ like- what? So if you say stuff like this to me, itā€™s fine but if i say it to you, itā€™s not? I always forgive her for this kind of stuff because I love her and everybody makes mistakesā€¦ but this is getting too much

Itā€™s an emotional rollercoasterā€¦ she hurts me, then makes me blush, then hurts me againā€¦ I donā€™t like any of thisā€¦ but I donā€™t wanna lose her eitherā€¦

Anywaysā€¦ I need to stop thinking about what she saidā€¦
I just need somebody to tell me whether or not I should end thisā€¦ whatever it isā€¦

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Abeer Setthi @pranum

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Hi Buddy,
if a person is saying something about you then in that case there is a possibility
that it might be true i just think that all good you are doing maybe its making you ignore the bad in you, its not that i am saying you are bad , its just that there are flaws in every person and maybe you should try to make them right šŸ˜Š
hope you understand

@ijustneedhelpdude
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OK those are some really toxic double standards. Iā€™m sorry if this scares you, but it sounds like your relationship might be getting worse than toxic and into mental/emotional abuse territory. I canā€™t be sure, Iā€™m just a teen reading your comments, but that sounds really bad and it might be a good idea to get out of that relationship, even though it may hurt. Everyone makes mistakes and deserves a second chance, but can I ask you, how many chances have you given her already? Every time you forgive her or ignore a rude comment? Sometimes it hurts but you have to leave. I know a lot about this, the one relationship I had was abusive. Iā€™m really sorry this happened to you, but this isnā€™t healthy. In a situation like this, if you are wondering if you should break up, you probably should. I know you love her, but for your own safety and happiness, I think you should let her go. It really seems best if you get out of there. Tell your parents or older siblings/friends/relatives if you can, they might be able to help. Also Iā€™m sorry this is so long, and Iā€™m really sorry all this has happened. Iā€™m always here for you, always :)

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Mx Shay @sxkurxchxn

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Thanks a lot for the advice! and I think youā€™re rightā€¦ but sheā€™s stopped saying stuff like that
So idt I should break up with herā€¦ if it happens again though I will

Thanks a ton once again! :)

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Mx Shay @sxkurxchxn

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You were right, It got extremely toxic
when i was breaking up with her she even said ā€œFine, Iā€™ll just got kill myself thenā€

that is the BIGGEST red flag

@ijustneedhelpdude
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Are you OK? Thatā€™s a really really awful thing to go through. Iā€™m here if you want to talk. :)

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