Hi people
Wanted to share something
I’m 21 in med school
Back in the previous lockdown, before it started, I was bullied and beaten up by my batchmates because one of them holds a grudge against me. I was really depressed after that and my friends stopped talking to me because they thought I was problematic. Then this one girl, she liked me back then and I had the same feelings too. She was there for me at that time and made me forget about all the bad things. We got really close but then lockdown happened and loneliness started striking me and because I was at home and had no one to talk to in person all the bad thinking came back. I was really depressed and during the whole lockdown I used to cry every night and became distant to a lot of people because I didn’t feel like talking to anybody, including the girl.
After the lockdown in Feb 2021, i felt like giving everything a new start but when I came back, that girl got back with her ex and is in a ldr. And I was really rooting for us both to happen. I was in love with her and really wanted to ask her out. I tried talking to her but she’s like, she liked me back then but then all this time in lockdown I became distant and she got close to her ex. I was shattered because my only hope and the only company I used to enjoy was gone. Tried being friends but when you love someone so much you can’t be just friends with them later. I really regret those months when I couldn’t talk to her because I was depressed. I feel really bad and I feel like I don’t have friends who care much. They just advice me to move on nothing else.
And won’t brag about it much, but I’m always ready to help my friends whatever the situation is and sometimes even I expect the same from them but never happens. Wish I had a person like me in my life.
Now that girl’s gone and I can’t move on. All the depression is striking back because lockdown has happened again. Right now I’m in my society sitting in a corner crying and writing this here because I have no one to share this with
Aakanksha @sadsoul0happyfa...
Hey!!
You are going through a very difficult phase, please don’t loose hope.
The bullying thing is really very scary. You are very strong that you made through it all alone. You are so strong.
But, acc. to me, you should take some action like complaining on national level forum working on such topics.
Secondly, about that girl, i guess she was there with you because she wanted to distract herself from her ex, but then when she got an opportunity to go back to him she took her chance. This was her choice, we cant help it.
Listen, you deserve good things in your life and trust me sometimes these good things take way more time than actually needed to happen.
Just have faith.
Tab tak ke liye, try diverting your thoughts and mind towards something which is more productive than thinking about that girl.
What;s gone, is gone.
Focus on your future.
Take Care.
