Hi
No idea what am doing here but somehow I felt like sharing my thoughts which are killing me.
For someone like me who’s been the victim of body shaming since school time and now when she is at the age where her parents want her to get married is still going through body shaming. I have been trying my best to look good, getting fil everything in my hands to do my best. Nothing is working because in an arranged marriage if you’re looking for a decent guy you have to be perfect as per Indian standards. This is killing me from inside and out. Every fucking day am crying. Because ‘agar AAP mote ho toh aap Shaadi karne layak nai ho’.
What should I do? Where should I go?
Am not feeling good. I have been struggling with career thing personal things and every day I try hard to motivate my self but I fail every time.
Hey, I kind of know how u feel I was body shamed by some people in school and a lot by my family and since everything literally depressed me I wanted to gain some sort of confidence to hold on longer until I move out I still have two years… but I tried to gain as much confidence as I could in quarantine by just being alone . So if you could maybe just take some alone time tell ur family to not prepare for any arrnaged marriage or something and give yourself all the time u need to heal and u don’t need to be fit or anything … everyone is beautiful and if u can maybe try ur very best to persuade them (after ur alone time which took me about 6 months but I could’ve used more…) to not actually get married now and that ur still young .
ANYWAY GOOD LUCK
