Hi, I’m in love with my best friend but my best friend is already in a relationship for 2 years. My relationship with him is weird, its what i would usually do with people that I am in a romantic relationship with such as calling first thing in the morning, gaming all day and calling at night. I asked his why we call after a gaming session and its was because he likes it. (At this point i dont know what to think or do). We would literally spend every hour if we can on call (sometimes not even talking) or gaming. Sometimes when we game and I make him laugh, its like i fell for him over and over again. He is everything I have ever looked for in a guy :(.
I respect his relationship with his gf and I would try and move on, believe me I TRIED. Part of me wants to tell him how i really feel but im afraid of losing him because no one else. The other part just wants to shove all my feelings in a box and continue to be his forever ‘friend’. But his always asking me if im okay, im afraid that one day im going to snap and confess to him and just lose everything. I didn’t know who I would turn and talk about him. He is my best friend. I tell him almost everything.