Hi I don't have friends I only have two friends I feel like I don't have people to talk Tom I feel bad. I don't know..,

Hey, you can talk here and share your thoughts. And some one will be happy to talk to you. 

Teenagers

Did I fail as a friend...
I always tried to defend my friend whenever they weren't around, I knew they are not perfect and whenever other people tried to trash talk about them, I would always try to defend them, I tried to be for them whenever they needed, I kept myself aside always and was there for them, may it be for the smallest thing or some thing big for them, I was there for them. 
And now the time has come that they don't even bother to call or mesaage once and ask. hows everything going, I didn't expect much from them, but just a call or text is much to ask for. 


3am Thoughts

Friendships are really getting my nerves idk what's happening I'm very unlucky in friendships since the beginning . All I wanted was a good friend who stay loyal to me that's it . Someone who mattered a lot to me sometime , I did every possible thing I could for them , I did literally everything anyone could ever want from a friendship and when my time came to need those things , they didn't show up and they gave their reasons to me . I could've even believed those reasons if I saw them behave well with me now after all this happened. They just distant themselves from me after everything I did for them and I felt very very bad . And now when I see them , making new friends and ignoring me and just being them .. I just feel bad seeing them because I did nothing wrong to them and all I got from them was anger and anxiety issues and frustration.  I feel very bad that they've now happily moved on and I'm still stuck when I was the one who did everything right since the beginning. I feel bad that once upon a time we had such a great great friendship and now when we even see each other in classes , we don't even talk anymore and nothing can go back to where it was . All this , without even making any mistake .
Friendship is very very difficult for me now and I'm seriously not able to do it because it is getting my nerves and I feel very bad now when they're just behaving with me selfishly and treating everyone the same way they used to treat me when they told I was special

I have no real friends..they only talk with me when they have no one else to talk with or they need my help with something..I always try to help them and try my best to be a good friend..then why does I'm easily replaceable?..why does no one talk with me just because they like talking with me..

Friends

i am feeling lonely because i sees that my friends only text me when they are bored or they dont have anyone to talk or they need something they doesnt text me like a friend do. Now i am feeling lonely now so i texted my bestfriend and my boyfriend and a friend but they doesnt responds even they are online they doesnt replies back and its not the 1st time i am seeing it they ghost me everytime but whenever they need something they texts me and i also replies them quickly as i love to text with them but it seems to be that they are not my real friends. is this true that they are not my friends? tbh i love to text with them but sometimes i feel like a fool as they doesmt even care abt me that much ya only when i dont replies back they started to comfort me with some lines and i also do what they wants me to do :( i think my mom says the true i guess i dont have any true friends instead of having true friends i might have greedy friends


Lonely

i don't believe my friends loves me. what should i do? i feel pretty depressed

When you make new friends, don’t get attached too much. This makes you sad all the time when they treat you as casual 

Insecurity

My friends dropped me because of my personality and how I never talk to them but I do talk to them but I feel left out and I told them that but they were just like you need to I coude your self into the group but they never tell me what they are talking about and even tho they have trash talked about each other and they have dropped people and asked them to come back I still miss them they replaced me with two other people they removed me from thier socials and they hang out and act like I was nothing to them and I see them at school which makes it 10x worse because they act as I’m not there 

what's your take on  friends? Like I've had this issue or whatever since many years now. I don't know what happened. I had a couple of really good friends in school, thought they'd be around forever types, thought that friendship was genuine. But girls and their drama and they all drifted apart. I have like very selected real close ones. But to be honest, it always bothers me why? I am not really part of the trendy or the happening groups, nor those who went to fancy schools/uni. It's just so mentally stressful, sometimes just to really wonder if I'm missing out on all the amazing stuff. I really don't know, what it is, the people in my class or just in general, I no longer connect with anyone in that deeper sense. It's not like I go around hating people. But I feel nobody really likes me, and like never really felt that forever feeling staying. I really don't know if all this makes sense. I don't even really like my birthday tbh. 
I feel really alone when I see all the posts by people celebrating so many years of friendship. It's just idk.It's not like I Don't like being by myself, I absolutely love it! I love myself and I love spending time with my thoughts and talking to myself. I've actually started loving myself more and more when I finally started to value my presence in others lives and figured out my priorities. I felt free. I had this gang in highschool, we were extremely close almost family like. And then by the end of 10th grade somehow I was cornered and just left out. I always try to overcome all this, but it's just not happening. Professionally I'm good in getting stuff done and networking and working in a team and all that. But when it comes to the personal aspect, I feel nobody is really there for me as much as I am for them. It can be small things like replying to my texts or something like that. I don't know what went wrong. Lol. I still remember in 5th grade I had this book to keep track of my friends and their birthdays and favourite colours, and I would rank them and all. Stuff like that, come back often. Was it because I wasn't allowed to "hangout" or spend as much with them? Was it because I never was cool because I never really had a proper boyfriend to chat on Facebook but just lame crushes? Was it because I didn't know people who went to posh schools? This particular girl, X  was one of my closest friends, I completely broke when we drifted apart. I don't think I have gotten closure . And it's just so dramatic, that there was Y who didn't like me that much and now they post 14 years of friendship on their stories. I really don't know. . I feel because of them, I lost trust or belief in friendship altogether. Now it's just materialistic and idk vv thought provoking as to how much this should and is affecting me. 
I did make wonderful brilliant friends later on, and those friendships are truly ❤️, I'm blessed. But somewhere I feel the truest sense of innocent friendship died with them. And that's stayed all this while. I did try reaching out, but when there's no effort from the other side, it's just a dull game of self respect woes. Ashte. Now given the pandemic and lockdown, we've literally spent a whole of 4 five months on campus in these 18(almost) months of so called "undergrad". This constant feeling of "I'm missing out on so many people, stuff, / I've already missed out on making real friends/future partners (professionally) just that community gang feeling. " It's just mentally taxing. But I'm making the most of whatever resources I have and trying to go beyond, " can you send me the assignment please"😂 I'm manifesting thissss and everything else. I'm trying and trying to really regain my confidence and just regain my belief in all the things I so innocently believed in back in my gap year. As they say, when you've hit rock bottom the only way is up, just that. 

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