Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

Hi ,
I am new here. I found out about now and me through Instagram and i am taking a chance. I am not doing very well personally and professionally. I took this job as a software engineer, even though I knew I didn’t want to take the job, just so that I get to move to a different city get the financial independence and the freedom to figure out my options to make myself a career in creative industry . Now its been two years since I started this job , I am stuck . Every day I wake crying with anxiety and confusion before logging in to work and cry myself to sleep. I know I hate my job, But I am not really sure how to move on. And this process and lifestyle has been going on for a year now and I went into this really dark place during the lockdown, job being the main reason and my decision to quite the job and go on for higher education or try my hand in following my passion was not very much welcomed and very much opposed and unsupported by my family. Now I have started to question myself , my abilities which I know is wrong , but I am not able to stop. I tried talking to friends and family but nothing seems to be helping.
I am open for any suggestion, support or similar stories that could help me choose my path . Please help.
I stepped out of collage young, energetic, hopes and dreams and goals. But I feel like I am becoming a person who I Neven aspired or wanted to be.
Please help