Hi 
I am kinda facing depression from a very long time. 
But recently form some days i am started having suicidal thoughts. 
Not goona lie I don't want to die but there is no hope .
I can't tell or talk to someone known bcs i have fear of getting judged by them. 
But i also Don't want to bottle up my feelings 

Pippoo🖤

I won't tell you to like talk to me about your problems ..but just wanna say that there was atime when I was also having the same thoughts but then one of my brother's bestfriend committed suicide and after that you can't even imagine what his parents have to go through ... You know. Am not saying that don't think about yourself but your parents ,I am just saying that after every dark night there is a beautiful day .......
And always remember that you are really precious ,your existence matters ,and most importantly you're not alone this festive i'll pray that you won't have bad thoughts anymore ...
Take care .....

Its not that I don't wanna live 

Its i don't wanna live like this anymore 

What if loved ones are the one who made you feel like this 

Suicidal Ideation

Counselors are useless!
They just talk like normal people do!
In fact,some of them interrogate for your problems as if you are faking your problems.
Hypnotherapy,CBT all is false!
I seen nothing in my counseling just seen wasting my money.

Work

I really fucked up by taking medicine as my career choice. I really fucked up.

3am Thoughts

Nowdays i dont react too much on my feeling on like many things..

Something happened in our life ,Many time we didn't even realized that this things has been happened, you have no !dea whts going on repeatedly, but later we react that things had happened then you realise, that in every situation whatever that situation can be .., you have No control on that...
No matter who you are..., What you are..., What you can do....,
And then you realised 
Things has no control......,
For English 🙏😑

Anger Issues

Dear mind, 

I know you are so powerful in making things happen. But can you please stop overthinking and help me get what i want. I need some rest from your unwanted negative thoughts. Please reset to positive mode and help me manifest my wish🥺

Regards,
The soul who has only hope on you. 

My results came out today ...And I have to go to my hostel within 2 days. I am feeling very tensed and anxious for starting this new phase called internship in my life.Amidst this pandemic all I wanted is to spend some time with family but duty calls. Can't fall asleep due to anxiety . I am also afraid that I still don't have the capability to identify people who are genuine and always feel that I will be taken advantage of.

Confusion

wish I could rewind the time to last year rakhi.

I am in love with the wrong guy. I like him and I shared my problems with him but he doesn't seem to care. Would it be a good idea if i ask him whether he actually cares about me or not?

Anxiety

Todays my first day using this app. I guess that shows my desperation. I’m just so sick and tired of being misunderstood…giving so much of myself to feel like I get nothing back in return…the past traumas that come and cloud my present thinking…the overstimulation, trying to find the right words to say, impulsivity, reacting in anger when I want peace like I really just want to be different and happy…free, smiling, a joy and positive force yo be around but I’ve bottled up so much that now little things just make me explode ☹️ am I the only one? Can anyone help? 

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