Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

hi guys so i just wanna share a piece of my life as i don’t really have someone to share exactly how i feel so i am currently in college and now college is closed due to sudden rise in covid 19 cases but when sadly i couldn’t make a single friend in college nor offline or online i was kinda very social person in my high school had a lot of friends i was very attached to them like my life literally revolved around them but like as soon as high school ended no calls, no chats i tried to message one of my friend i actually called her but she picked up a fight out of blue i apologised to her like so many times yet she never replied and ghosted that really affected me and i have no more courage to open up and make new friends i am currently studying for medicine and it can get tiresome sometimes my mother sometimes beats me if i dont do home chores she becomes very agressive and harsh with words i am old enough to counter her attacks but my body becomes numb and i start to have breathing problems my brother is a malevolent person i know younger siblings can be annoying but i have literally cried asking him to stop he isn’t so small that i am literally begging him to stop sometimes cries so that my mother beats me i hate my life want to end it all at once all this suffering but my religion doesn’t permits to take life cant take it anymore be strong, stay positive till when i want this suffering to end sometimes i wish the tome could just stop i want to get out of this dark hole of life i say to myself i don’t need anyone in life but sometimes i just need a person to ask me how i am doing? not just for the sake of conversation by to listen to my heart hug me i just don’t remember when someone hugged me empathize with me ah i am in tears as tell you all how i feel thank you so much for reading i appericiate