Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

Hi all, thought I’d give this a whirl as I’m like a broken record to my friend. It’s been almost 2 weeks since who I thought was my forever love left me. He called me up and just told me its not working between us, he’s felt numb for months now but he didn’t have the guts to tell me and he doesn’t want to drag the relationship out for the sake of it. I obviously got really upset and so did he, he came to pick his things up a few days ago and I’ve just spiraled into a deep depression. The thing I hate the most is he has had a lot of relationships and he’s very quick to move on, myself was single for years before him and found it hard to be with someone or meet people. He come along and made my life complete, he was my best friend. I’ve been through my fair share of heartbreaks but this just tops it all, especially now I’m older. I was in shock at first but now I just find myself breaking down constantly, I can’t concentrate on work, I can’t fake a smile when I go out for a walk with my friends, I can’t stop wondering what I could of done different. I feel like I’m never going be able to meet anyone again who will make me as happy as he did… I can’t describe how much I miss him and I’d do anything to have him here with me again but I know it’s impossible. I feel so worthless, inconfident, unlovable and weak. How can guys move on so quickly, I wish I could just forget us. 😭