Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

heyy,
it’s um, it’s mee
I juss wanted to say that I MISS YOU, I got to thinking yesterday and I ran across one of our old pictures and I almost tried to call, obviously I didn’t. So now I’m just leaving this…
I’m still full of questions and I’m not really quite sure if I’ll have enough time to ask them.
do you ever 𝑾𝑶𝑵𝑫𝑬𝑹 about me? like the way I wonder about you? I wonder of you’re alright… cause the last time we spoke, you didn’t seem alright…but that’s not my place anymore so I can’t ask… Do you even think about happened and wonder where we would be if it didn’t ??? I do… but that prolly makes me sound crazy because I should just let go, right?
I should just drop everything I knew about you and pretend that we never happened? Pretend I didn’t approach you? and try to build a bond, that I know I messed up but I can’t pretend that it didn’t happen I saw much positivity…even though you never failed to push me back down. I’m not blaming you though and of course like every other thing I practiced in my head, this isn’t coming out way that I wanted it to but I just wanna know, did you actually care about me? or was it really just a game? Like, you befriended me… and then it actually became legit and things both went wrong in our own lives and then you got stuck w me and then you just decided you didn’t need me anymore and you needed a reason to hate me so you could just shut me out, then I wouldn’t be trying to call you right? that’s what it was, right? because I meant literally nothing to you and if that’s not true, then show mw how it’s not true because something like what we had doesn’t just crash or burn after somebody’s mistake, you’re supposed to grow and you never let me grow and you’re afraid to let show, aren’t you? you’re afraid for everyone to know that you were the bad one, it wasn’t just me, but it’s okay…because one day they’ll know. We’ll just have to wait and see, wont we ? and after a month and half I found myself calling you memory and I never wanted that us to last, you know? I wanted our 𝑭𝑼𝑻𝑼𝑹𝑬, but you just didn’t want that anymore… but I guess I understand and you can talk to me if you want, the number should pop up in your missed call log… !
BYE ❤