Heyy
Coming to the point I always wanted to become a doctor … it was my passion since my childhood… but exactly before the final exam I got badly distributed and distracted because of my friends,I know that the one to be blamed is no one but me . I didn’t make it to med school. I asked my parents if I could take long term and try it again . My mom never liked the idea because she always wanted me to become an engineer like my dad . My dad is an engineer and he is very respected in his profession. My dad wanted to me to not have any regrets so he said yes to long term
But then came my brother , he spoke with me , he basically cornered me when I was in the weakest in my life , I couldn’t take it anymore and gave in , I said i will take engineering and look after the company after my dad .
All of them were happy, all that whole I felt like a disappointment to my family and once they were all happy with me … so I just went along with it
I joined engineering finished and after my second sem started covid had come
So we came home and soon after that I lost my mom to pancreatitis . It was a very hard time for me … not only me my whole family , but that made me realise something :
Life is short … and my mom tried to live it to her fullest
Even being at the age of 52 she enrolled to bharatnatyam classes because she always wanted to learn classical dance
She inspired me to stop caring about what others might think and start living life as our own wish
After a few months of depression and suicidal thoughts I finally spoke up and told my dad that I couldn’t do engineering anymore … that the regret of not doing medical was eating me up inside
Initially he wasn’t happy with me … but he soon accepted the fact that I was deteriorating day by day … he couldn’t bare it anymore and h said asked me to stop doing engineering and start doing medical
Using my previous score i got into a college
None of them are happy with this decision
They keep telling me it was my mom’s dream that I take care of the company after my dad
I seriously don’t know what to do
It just hurts a lot to see that most of the people who are close to your heart do not accept your decisions
One question keeps on haunting me
Would amma have said yes to this change of career choice of mine ?
This is a question to which no one can answer
And it just eats me up
I really wish I get to speak with her once
I wish she comforts me
I really wish she was here with me rn
Cause this is hurting like shit
So here’s the thing, mothers can never see their kids sad, or stressed over anything. She would have said a yes even before you would have told her about your regret of not going for medical college, she would have figured it on her own that why mothers are so important in ones lives. Dont worry about your present, your future is that matters.
Thank you so much for those kind words
I really needed them
Ashish Sharma @thatsmeashi...
Hey, i am really sorry for the loss.
What i feel like is there is no one permanent in our lives.
Friends, Love, Relatives, not even the family everyone leaves at some point of time in our lives.
The only thing that is constant is YOU.
Only you have to live your life, no one else will.
Learn from your mother buddy, if she can enroll for her classical classes then why can’t you un-doubtfully go choose your career.
Its only that thing, that will be there when no one else will be. This will be the only thing that will help you survive in future if anything goes wrong.
You have to accept the things and have to be a little self-cautious. You can not please everyone all the time. There comes the time when you have to take some really hard steps.
I can understand everyone wants there family to be happy and of course they will be happy once you are successful in whatever you are doing. You just have to believe that what you are doing is just right.
Believe in yourself and you mom would be really happy about it that you choose what you wanted to do.
Thank you !
I really needed this
It means a lot !!!
Ashish Sharma @thatsmeashi...
Anytime queen!
Stay strong, keep going.
Anytime you feel like lost. Ping me up on insta 192.168.1.555
Surely thanks !
You too 😁
I can understand you because i lost my mother too 2y ago. I was depressed and couldn’t take care of myself properly. But as time went on i started thinking that whatever I do she will always be happy because am happy!thats the power of mothers love. In your case too, even is she is present here or not she will definitely encourage you. She must be happy now that you will become a doctor who will save n number of lives in the future.
One more thing, thinking about others first is not always good. You should be selfish sometimes in your life inorder to you to be happy. Because at the end YOU matter. So do what you love then others will automatically love you.
Cheers!
Thanks man
Really needed it
All these positive comments are making me cry now !
