hey ( with intention of talking to someone cool and sharing some exciting spicy stuff going on in  my life ) 

3am Thoughts

Got my first heartbreak from my mom

Love

I really hate my self coz I always want my mom and dad to proud but it always goes opposite. No one in my family understand my point what I want to say. Is this wrong when I said my mom that I need some love not like a boyfriend or something but only love that they don’t give me? 

Overthinking, anxiety, crying spells

Hi. My family dynamics are giving me anxiety and I have been having crying spells for days now... this happens every now n then with a small trigger. I'm 31. I'm very lonely as I feel no body in my family loves me enough, they have other priorities. While I'm not suicidal, the thoughts cross my mind often. I wanna break out of this vicious cycle.. but that would mean breaking ties with my family completely which would make it worse. But my family can be very toxic, my parents are not bad human beings, but external forces (relatives) have been manipulating them for years dragging them away from me. I also have PTSD from a major fight that went down when my brother was still in touch with us.. when he beat me up.
Please help

Anxiety

don’t wanna live with my in laws but he won’t leave his family and I can’t leave him .

Marriage

I have been called ugly multiple times,and I stopped looking for goodness inside me. I hate myself when people criticise me for my looks, my height or comparison with my elder sister, she is obviously taller than me and much good looking. I haven't felt loved. My mother never loved me, hated me that too during her last phase of life. Sometimes I just want to end my life. 

Bullying

May all our sacrifices, silent cries, handwork payoff sooon ❤️🤜🤛

Finally together for the first time after 12 years online! I can't describe how happy I am! I know we've been through ultimate shit and fortunately we are still together! 

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