Hey. My life is not that bad honestly. But there’s this longing. It’s a kind of void that exists within me. And no matter what I do, it always stays and never goes away. And when I’m lonely, it creeps back onto me. I’m not scared of it or anything. I’m just afraid of who I might become because of that in the nature. I don’t want to be needy or anything but I just think that I’m sooo utterly alone in this world. And I’m not sure if I want to be like this. But also, I’m not easy to handle at the same time. I challenge myself and the people around me every single day. I hurt, push and throw my loved ones away from me. Maybe because I’ve never been loved in the right way ever. I don’t think I’m going to.