Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

hey, just wanted to share w my tragedy. because could be love be ever painless?it beggins back in 2017 when i was bullied pretty badly, i met this girl, her eyes were so deep and beautiful that my whole world was reflected in them. Her eyes…. as deep as ocean. her smile, i always knew i want to see that smile everyday, until my time on this planet doesnt end. she was always the reason i would smile even in the worst. she was always the reason i never cut deep, why i stayed here until now. if only my love for her could stay painless, but now im lost in a blue. i never got the chance to tell her that theres no one that could lover her like i do. but as a time went by, she got to know this guy, i wont say his name cuz he was just a bastard that couldnt appreciate such a perfect person. after 2 months they started dating. after few weeks of this realitionship her eyes stopped shine and she become to be distand from me, from her family, from everyone. i knew there was something wrong but i coulnt do anything. even when i tried that bastard that called himself her boyfriend always stopped me before i could do anything, so i was just praying and crying that she will be allright. this went for few weeks, than months .it was february, it was cold outside, snow everywhere, a seriously beautiful month, but it got worse after finding the only star and only person i wanted to spend the rest of my life with, passed away, she bleeded out after suffering for hours of pain, crying, and alone she finally could leave this cruel world where is everyone suffering. i couldnt believe such a thing. she comitted suicide after being abused, raped, tortured for months. but why couldnt i help her, why didnt i help u, u were my star, the perfect person, the only one i saw, no one loved u ever like i do. only if u loved me too.
i will do everything to get revenge for u. i do not care anymore.