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Hey. I’m feeling like to self harm. I mean I am fed up of my own BS now. I do a lil progress and idk from where everything hits again n I go back in negative. I dont have time for all this. I really don’t. I have the potential I have the capability I believe in myself I’m strong n confident but I fell for that one boy soo hard that it has made me loose my senses. I’m finding it hard to move on from my ex even when he was emotionally abusive n manipulative. I hate what he did to me I’m struggling to heal from it yet miss him and he’s like my toxic comfort. I cry myself to sleep every other day. I watch myself sit there and wallow in pity and watch myself breakdown, helpless which makes me hate myself moree. I’m guilty to accept that I am not over him yet cz he did me wrong n still I miss him, I feel disgusted. Why m I such a simp and a loser. When will I love myself enough to just keep moving forward. Please help me. My mind n heart is at war and I can physically feel it😢😢😢😢This isn’t getting any better. When this shall pass?

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Anonymous

I don’t know if this would help you but learning to love yourself is a very slow but an incredibly healing and beautiful process.Spend time on yourself doing something that you like and stuff like that . Maybe that would help you to move on and you don’t need to hate yourself over missing your ex. You are someone who is incredibly strong for leaving a toxic relationship and a toxic person so don’t worry if you miss him , it’s not abnormal.It is going to be okay !

Anonymous

Thank you for the kind words😔😔I hope it will be okay

sanjain

its can be replaced with someone else but not unloved.

Anonymous

I’m not trying to unlove…I just don’t want it to affect my future and I’m feeling guilty as to still m attached to my abuser. I feel ashamed

sanjain

i call understand but you need to fully recover dude or you gonna project your past on your new relationship

Anonymous

I’m not in new relationship yet…I just don’t wanna keep wailing for my abuser I hate myself

sanjain

merko toh daarr hai, u might start new relationship just to let go of your past and start projecting your past on new one.

Anonymous

Nahh I won’t ever do that…it’s been more than a year I am single even when a guy asked me out which I kinda liked but ik I will mess up so I denied and also my ex moved on with some girl. I mean he tried but failed cz that girl texted me and we came to know when he was trying to get back forcefully he was also seeing her

sanjain

wow, girl texted you :p

Anonymous

I’m a girl, guy texted me

Anonymous

His new girl texted me

sanjain

got it yaar, so what’s your plan now?

Anonymous

Idk re…achha chal raha tha sab achanak se it hits…fir wapas utho again it hits aise kitne restarts krti hu thak gyi hu feels like a loser I feel extremely ashamed and udhr mast ladki ghuma raha going on with his life…why m I soo stupid???

Anonymous

And it doesnt hit so lightly…I can feel the pain in my body literally I go numb I cry often…and for what yrr…a fucking abuser a cheater who just moved on like I was nothing…I’m dealing alone with this I don’t wanna victimise myself but I can’t help crying over it and beating myself for it

sanjain

mere sath hua tha last month same, and i can feel the pain in chest and was not able to eat single bite, everyone at home got concerned ho kya gya isse.

Anonymous

Yes it feels horrible, how are you doing now?

sanjain

I am doing amazing now :)
touchwood

Anonymous

Good to hear❤️✨stay happy stay blessed ✨

sanjain

you gonna be alright but its gonna take time yaar.

have faith in yourself, work towards your career.

Anonymous

Yes I’ll keep fighting this. Thank you

sanjain

so you are working?

Anonymous

Nope studying for a competitive exam. Next month then gonna have to look for job

sanjain

oh relationship and competitive exam…gazab combination hai.
how you handle it all?

Anonymous

Handle nhi hora tabhi toh ro rahi hu idhr😭😭

sanjain

suba suba mat roo kya, its gonna be fine

Anonymous

Hahaha yes

sanjain

lets call it a day or you wanna connect somewhere else, like email?

Anonymous

We’ll call it a day.

sanjain

All the very best, Rise and Shine and top karna :)

Anonymous

Thank you 😊😊😊

sanjain

and are you better now?
kalse toh atleast?

Anonymous

Yes I am feeling better… constantly having the convo of the past is past and hammering myself to keep going

sanjain

great

Anonymous

We cannot change the past but we can surely change the future
-Timon
(The Lion King)

😂😂🙊

sanjain

And maybe destiny is already written, then why worry :)

Anonymous

Don’t tell me yrr u believe in this destiny n shit👀👀

sanjain

I dont believe in, I am letting you, why worry so much :p

what exam you are preparing for?

Anonymous

Hahahaha okay, afcat

sanjain

OMG, so finally airforce :)

thats pretty daunting

Anonymous

Hahah yes😅😅

sanjain

party dena yaar !
its amazing.

I have studied in Army school near subroto park (if you know what subroto park is :p)

Anonymous

Yes def💯
Oh that’s nice…Delhi m h na woh.

sanjain

are you not from delhi?

Anonymous

Nope

sanjain

so where on earth I can find you xD?

Anonymous

Pune☺️

sanjain

arre wah!

Pune is better then Delhi :)

Anonymous

Yes it is😁

sanjain

now and me pe he sare baat karle? ya u got email id too?

Anonymous

I wanna stay anonymous 🥺🥺

sanjain

that’s why I asked email :p Genius

Anonymous

No yet I don’t want even a stranger to know abt what I am going thru as I mentioned I’m very much ashamed of it hehe so I hope u understand 😅

sanjain

aab aye na asli baat samne.

see yaar we comfortable in your skin, dont over think about past and ese dosto k sath relationship ya friendship karo who are mature enough to accept your past and you can go talk to them about anything and everything.

and for the god sake be proud of the past, it taught you the lesson.

I am not forcing you to connect, but yaar ese chup mat :p

be open and people will support you.

you gonna do great for sure i know.

Anonymous

Yes I hope it works out for me🥺