Hey everyone
Im not in love or something...i have an interest on this person that i cant imagine being without that person....if its not love...then what is it....im so confused

It will complicate things...we were good friends from our childhood

He doesn't....and i know it...im alone in this 

It can be just attachment. Sometimes we spend a lot of time with someone or we are lonely and get attention from a particular person...it makes us feel like we can't live without them because they are possibly our only reason we feel good about ourselves 

I havent spend much time with that person...i have a slight crush on him...i have known him from my childhood...i was always interested in him from my teenage years....but its not love...i dont fall in love....but ik that i cant be without him..i cant imagine it as well

Confusion

I've been on and off with this guy for about 4 years now. Sometimes things are going great. Other times we argue over the smallest things. My love language is being around my partner majority of the time or at least talking to them. He doesnt like to speak on the phone so Ive already compromised talking otp and ftiming him. We just text and i BARELY see him. Its really annoying. Not to mention he is nonchalant a lot of the times and doesnt communicate well. I feel like he expects me to read his mind or know his feelings at times and gets mad if I dont. But the question is, is this relationship worth it or no? I have deep feelings for him and care about him a lot. But I often think, do I love him, or do I just love the idea of being with someone? I dont want to lose him and it hurts to think about, but something deep inside of me feels like I just dont wanna be alone so I keep him around. I dont know whats true and whats not. And I dont wanna be a bad person. Thoughts anyone? 

3am Thoughts

How to face toxic people at work?

Adulting

My father is an atheist I'm a big shiva devotee even though I'm born in a Hindu family in not allowed to carry out religious practices at home. I wish I could leave this house but I'm a girl. I worshiped lord shiva against his wish and he started troubling my whole family because of it. To avoid arguments in my family I today had to put away shiva linga from my own hands . I wish to cut my hands off. This was the only base of life I knew . This was my mental health this was all I had which is now being taken away forcefully. I am ashamed to call myself his daughter to some people it may not seem like a big issue but when you are spritual devoted and faithful it is the extreme of all the feelings saying that I'm hurt would be underrated at this point. I never asked for anything in life I just wanted to worship in peace and now that I am no longer allowed to do it im miserable . P.s. talking to him won't help at all I tried to get things straight he is just so arrogant how can he enforce his beliefs on me? I'm not looking for any solution here I just wanted to say things out loud. Thanks for bearing w me

Spirituality


I don't even know how else to say it but my step daughter might be a sociopath. I say might be BC the mom part of me that loves her so much and gave everything for her is still holding out hope she really does feel remorse and isn't a monster...She has moved out indefinitely, but I can't even properly miss her or feel bad for her BC the rest of me is so angry and hurt that she would do and say what she has.

Back story- I fell in love with a guy who had a daughter. I came from an abusive relationship so he got me a puppy to help me cope when he was away for work. His daughter was only with us for summers and holidays. She was 6 when we met and for years I did everything I could to win her approval. It didn't take long as I saw a girl who clearly needed love and was instead being judged by her mom. The woman who above all others should do nothing else but love and protect. Years went by and our bond was strong. She was my little girl, my best buddy. She shared my art talent and I wanted to do everything to help her grow. I was there for the body talk, the sex talk, the relationships and even her first period. I was careful and always asked permission even after I married her father BC even though I didn't like her mom she was her mom and that title should hold value. Then the pandemic hit and she had to actually spend time with her bio mom. They caught constantly so her mom got her a puppy to distract. They had cats in the past but there was always an issue with fleas and she would feel it's her fault she had to rehome them. One day her mom called us and had enough. She wrote up her rights packed her bags and sent her to move in with us. We were over joyed, fighting for so long to be in her life and now she would be a full time part of ours.

She moved in with us when our baby was only 6 months (they are 12 years apart) everything was exactly as it should. She made comments missing her other puppy, I thought nothing of it. "if she wasn't here then could we get another dog?" Kids say a lot of things without thinking. Her bio mom would make comments about keeping the dog that it liked her more.

One day I caught her strangling my puppy. Found out that same day she had been poisoning my girl with Tylenol for months while watching us care for her and wonder what's wrong. My baby girl didn't get better and I was forced to put her down.

Hands down the hardest choice I've ever made and the only regret I have. That creature meant the world to me but she made her world unsafe and I failed to protect her. She then had her new puppy sent over since there was no real reason not to anyone since we technically did have room.

For a year she was back and forth with counselors, in and out of units. The dog showed up dirty flea covered and clearly mistreated. My husband and I cared for the dog as we would any other animal. Watching that dog sulk around the house for a year and a half hurt. She didn't deserve it, nobody did.

She made comments that the dog smelled or was too big, all to avoid spending time or caring for her. I eventually found a family to rehome her to.

During that year she continued to lie, steal and put the family at risk. Hiding razor blades, medication and even took advantage of my sister passing to steal from family at the funeral while my husband and I were at our weakest point.

Our house went from a happy picture perfect family to a prison with locks on all the cabinets, bars on windows and cameras posted.

She was calculated, manipulative and can fake cry when she needs it.

I watched my husband go from the strong, loving positive man of my dreams to a hurt shell of a human. She took my toddlers first memories and years. She took the happiness from my life. Hearing her laugh about what she's done to that vulnerable creature. Every fiber in my being wants to hurt her and make her suffer the way she has made the family , yet I hate myself for even feeling that way. I'm supper to be kind, loving and caring. That is my daughter but that creature was my baby too. The real monster shouldn't be allowed to walk free

Compassion

This is the time to say ...
Peace 🕊️ begins when you start giving 😌
✌️✌️✌️✌️

Mindfulness

Lost my mom two months back. Lost my strength. Dont know where to go from here and how to stop being soo angry all the time. 😞

Family

Any good rom-com movies or series suggestions please 

Kbhi socha bhi nhi tha ese bhi din aye ge. ..........  Jab sab kuch tha bhot kuch tha paas jab Aaj kuch nhi toh hum bhi tanha hai. Jevan ka ye kaisa dastur hai zindgi toh kat rhi hai Safar adhura hai. Medicine le hai aaj 2 months baad ab bhi sukoon nhi hai. Bas wish ye safar khatam ho jaye par hoga nhi.  Bhot dukh diye hai apno ko this time karma back 2 back. Hit me log bolte hai tum haste bhot ho. Hum unse khete app ache bhot ho. Kash life. Phir se wo pal la sake. Lekin ab nhi aye ge 

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