Hey everyone,
I just got courage to restart my stucked life. I was procrastinating my studies form past 3 months. Just now I have started to plan things and I get like 11 hours to study on daily basis.
I have stated this here as a challenge to me  and to you guys too, to plan and follow with me for atleast 31 days.
It will help us to grow together.
And also I have started to increase my vocabulary like have to learn atleast 5 to 6 words for a day and use them too.
So let's begin....

it's lily🐱

Maria Tentsou

Damn that's hard life! I am not that dedicated sorry 

Recently i also started working on my vocabulary and English... So i think we can help each other 

How about we have a little chat in for few minutes just to improve our vocabulary? Because I am aslo trying to improve mine

Competition

My boyfriend did not see his mother or live with her because he was adopted from another family, and he knew the truth after she died. He is broken because of this
How can i help him?

Love

My ❤ is Failing 

Lonely

I was reading our messages, and i realised you never texted me,you just replied me. And that's why i stopped texting you.

Life

I am feeling super cranky!! I had some awesome weekend plans but now I don’t feel like going and I know I am going to have a super fomo of missing it. I am just tired of existing!! 

i dont know how to love her. I've never been with anyone before this so obviously i dont know how to love in the first place. She's had 4 boyfriends before me. and i feel this pressure to be better than all of them. i constantly question myself, am i doing enough, will she leave me, will she cheat on me because of this. its a sinking feeling. it bottles me up and i end up expressing even less, i cant talk openly about how i feel with her because i know she'll judge ne. like im not someone who makes big gesatures. she once told me her second boyfriend booked surprise tickets to thailand. that too one month into their relationship. she says thats how you express love. and so i dont know how to love.  i cant even afford such things. what do i do. the max ive done is give her flowers or chocolates but i know its not enough in her head and that she'll think i dont love her enough or that im not worthy of being with her. i know this seems so superficial and i shouldnt be affected by this but idk why i still do. maybe because secretly even i would want to be treated with expensive present and it also kinda shows that you're willing to spend something valuable to you personally for someone. idk it's conflicting. i still want to be with her, dont wanna lose someone i have, id rather be sad and together than depressed and lonely, so i put up with it, does that make sense? idk it is what it is 

I love her so much🥺

3am Thoughts

Exs dad wished me happy birthday. Is it expected for me to do the same back ? Like is that the right thing. Awkward spot. His daughter broke up with me 

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