Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

Here is the rest of my story. So my mom had been sick for six years and her sisters as well as her mom refused to take care of her so I did it, I helped her to clean herself since she wasn’t really capable of walking and also helped her to feed herself since she was starting to lose hope in life and in herself but I was the one walking for her to help her feel better, I refused to have any friend and to give my time to her to help her with her recovery, when she got better she rejected me, she told me that she was fed up with me and that she didn’t want me anymore so I’ve hid under my bed and cried for 3 hours straight but she didn’t cared. I kept quiet and soon she got sick again and I helped her again even though she never apologized, and she recovered again and then told me to give her her life back, that I’m the one ruining her life and that it’s because of me that she had been sick all these years, she rejected me again and still do even now but I simply keep quiet and do the best that I can to be transparent in her life so that she can smile… it actually hurts a lot that I have to do that for my mom to smile but I’m doing it, I’m trying to make her happy and that’s the only thing that matters to me, hoping that one day she’ll tell me that she loves me as much as I do, she will have to kill me in order for me to accept being rejected by her but meanwhile I will always be here for her even in my worse days, even if I’m crying every night because of her, even if she’s destroying me I’m here and will always be🙂