Help me!! I hate everything n everyone in my life rgt nw n more than that I hate myself fr that. I just want to have a normal life is it too much to ask for. why can’t god give me atleast a simple normal life. My father is an alcoholic n I m so scared that one day he will leave me fr ever… my heart hurts while writing this but I m so scared. Pls help me! I dont wanna die I m just 19 I haven’t seen anything. But everyday its just too much I can’t sleep at night bcoz of these scary nightmares that I get. I m afraid to be alone, to sleep n do anything. everything is just too disturbing fr me. I get irritated so easily n wanna lash out at ppl fr no reason. I know this is nt me but don know why this keeps on happening. Help me pls! I dont want my family to know this. They are already having a tough tym I don’t wanna be burden on them.