Hello! 
So few months back a friend of mine has lost his mother due to covid and it's his birthday tomorrow and i am really confused that should I wish him? And if I do wish him what should I say to him that might be comforting😶 please if anyone can help me. 

COVID-19

Hi, ive been feeling like my heart will sunk. My birthday is comming but i feel like I would be sad and stressed about it. Im turning 18 and its our culture to have a grand party event its like quince.
And I only want even not a party just a photoshoot will be enough, I just want to do something for my bday but I feel like I cant do anything. I am so broke and my family cant afford it. I cant help but to be sad and became motivated to never have a child until im rich and finacially stable. Look whos singing "its my party, I'll cry If I want to🎶 " 



3am Thoughts

Is anyone's birthday tomorrow 
If yes then hello birthday twin😁🙋‍♀️

My ex just wished me happy bday . What should i do ? 

Breakup

Is it possible to be happy alone on your birthday

I hate my birthday
I hate today
I hate what will be in a few hours
As a child I liked that day the most
Now its the most disliked day of my being.

Depression

My ex's birthday is on august 19...
Should i wish him ? 
This is the first time in 3 years 
And we are not together on his birthday yk
I am just 🤷‍♀️

Does anyone cried on thier birthday here? 
Like don't really want anything, don't feel anything good, can't help stop crying and don't even know why, and it's not really something happened
If you then why does it happens? 

Life

I hate birthdays. I never wish people. When I do, I don't write them long, meaningful messages. When I do, I drop a cold "Happy Birthday" text in the last few hours of the day. I never call to wish. I never send birthday videos, or write birthday cards.

It sounds weird, I know. I spend practically all day on my phone, and I just don't have the strength to wish. I thought it was weird too, and I just couldn't figure out why I do that. I thought I was just lazy. But now, I know why. 

In school, I was surrounded by people who I knew weren't good for me. People who I was determined to change. I was under the impression that the love I had for my friends could perform miracles on them. What I didn't realize was how lonely I felt even in a crowded room. Real friendships meant very little. It was all about how big the group was when we went out. Make a plan with 30 people, and 15 are sure to show up! There was no depth, and I was simply a backup plan. I didn't mean anything to most of them. They were a fun group to hang out with, but we didn't share anything real with each other. I realize that now.

I had other groups of friends- my "Anglo-group", my theater group, my swimming friends, my college friends (once I joined college)- but for some reason I never completely fit into one group. I had a few similarities with everyone, but I never felt like I truly belonged. That makes for a very lonely life- to be surrounded by so many people who say they love you, when you feel that they're only friends with you because they pity you.

 I have a birthday party every year and I invite everyone! Do you know why?
Because I'm afraid if I don't throw a party for myself, on my birthday, I will spend the day alone. No one will do anything special for me- no surprises, no friends randomly showing up at my doorstep, no birthday video calls, no cake cutting at midnight, no random flowers and cake arriving, no nothing. I throw myself a birthday party because I'm afraid if I don't, no one will show up for me.

Does it help me feel less alone? Absolutely not. It makes me feel worse. Sitting alone in a room with 40 people, all  in their various groups, chatting, laughing, making plans for what they'll do after they leave my house and the next day (I was born on Christmas Eve), while I am completely excluded from the plans even on my own birthday. 

So, I hate birthdays. And the possibility of me spending my birthday under lockdown and not even being able to invite people over makes me nervous already. Its been on my mind for the last two days because I wished my oldest friend a simple "Happy Birthday, sorry for texting so late" text at 8 pm on her birthday, in spite of all the years she has been in my life.

I feel guilty, ashamed, and pretty helpless.


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