Hello. Running behind friends is such a chase… they say they are there, but i’m the one always messaging or staying in touch.
Inly my partner is the one who reaches out on his own…still due to my cptsd n depression i feel like i am annoying to him.
Plus i am 27, at this age, my parents hit me alot last yr, and still get hyper…and they do so much projection that i am at fault, i tortured them etc…i am also so scared that when i tell them that i want to marry my bf…they being as abnormal as they are…how will they get hyper and hit me again and all.
i am sooo scared. They say fear is in the mind, and self-inflicted; but mine is all real based on real life incidents i feel stuck, i wish i knew a way out.
I wish life wasn’t like it is. i know others are struggling too…mine seems endless. I so hope i knew a way out of it.
xoxo.
Have been feeling super lonely and low too.
Hi, I completely understand your problem as I am suffering from something similar (not exactly) but for the time being, I think you need some emotionally present and always available people. But also consider that maybe your friends are there for you and it’s just that they don’t know how to deal with your exceptional problems. You are loved anon. I understand it can feel otherwise, but it’s just your mind playing games, believe me I’ve been there.
And also I would like to ask you if you’re financially independent. If you are then you can move out and rent a place for yourself. You’d be good to go. If not, then consider doing a job.
Above all, pls pls pls take care of yourself. Ping me literally anytime and i would be there for you. Lots of love and peace to you
