hello im very upset today…
well was very upset today i have calmed down a bit but im still upset. My mother made me feel upset, shes a nice caring women and i care for her but she can be very cruel to me without even realizing. I have adhd and dont receive help for it and because of that im a mess most times, i use to take medication for it but my family made me feel like i was doing bad by relying on medication so i stoped taking them which sucked because they were really helping me anyways today me and my mother were talking about how i get distracted all the time and forget a lot of stuff and i told her its because i have adhd and stoped taking my medication and she told me its because im always on my phone. I kept telling her how it because of my adhd but she just told me it was all in my head and i could get things done if i just tried instead of being lazy , that made me feel very upset because everyday i try my hardest and sure i wake up late and im not the most productive and space out alot but i really do try my hardest, I also have depression so most days i dont even want to get out of bed but i do. I try to do at least one productive thing everyday even if i feel like my life is crumbling down…
i try my hardest every single day and it hurts to hear my mother tell me i dont try to do anything or that im lazy, to make things worse im 18 and expected to know everything about being an adult. I feel mentally exhausted.
One thing I relate to is the mother part. I do not know if it’s the Indian upbringing or what, but they just don’t want to understand or acknowledge what really goes on inside.
You just have to go through this, the way you’ve been going through this. I usually tune out my mother when she tells stuff that can potentially harm me or my state of mind. It took a lot of control and practice. I just did not care at all after one point.
Talk to her or someone else about getting back on medications. If it doesn’t work, fine no problem. Do what you’ve been doing.
