Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

Hello,
I guess anyone reading this is about to hear my whole life story so far. Well its gonna be long.

My life isn’t as bad as many people, but i guess whats happened to me during lockdown has affected me. I was always a shy and kind girl. I had 1 Best Friend a year ago but we fought over because of how she left me alone for months and started hanging out with others, i guess i might have been jealous because she would be having a good time and i would just be along, hovering around other people. Soon we sorted it out but we still arent as close as we used to be. Fast forwarding i become friends with people i didnt expect to become friend with. Its a group of 6 girls- including me- and well i knew 2 of them from my prievios school. The other girls were nice too and I guess we all became pretty close. Last year just before the national lockdown my friend had found some people from my previous school and there were 3 guys. 3 of my friend- including me- had a group chat with them, so three girls three guys. 1 Guy has always annoyed me from day one, because im very gullible and fall for things easily, or at least used to, he would always make fun of me or embarress me, my friends werent that much of a help either, they would sometimes go along with the joke. 1 friend would also send ‘slips’ (bad pictures) of me in the gc to embarres me because they thought it was ‘fun’. Sooner or later i had many arguments with her and well i guess we had to sort it out because it was stupid. Most people would have read up to here and thought that they guy liked me or something or because he was a jerk. I’ve gotta agree with him being a jerk because he really is. The girl on the other hand, many have said i have bad friends and not gonna lie, i cant wait till i move on from high school and meet new people. So carrying on the guy had embarresed me, edited pictures of me, and violated me infront of other people too. This has affected my confidence a lot. Ever since i got added to the group chat i have started to swear more often and my anger issues have risen. Most the time i come online to talk to strangers now because there at 7.5 billion people in the world and i dont WANT to be affected by a few people, i want to meet good people, with nice hearts, caring personalities, so that i can be myself with them, so that they stand up for me when they think that whats happenning to me is wrong, no matter it being a joke. So yh… in lockdown i got into depression for a week, i would cry and just cry over my life, now if i think of it, no matter how much i try and let myself think i was stupid for doing that, theres a part of me that knows that there mustve been a reason, it must have hurt soo much that depression happened…and me not having the best friends…nobody texted to text me if i was okay…a day passed… a week…and i got no text.
Im here because i want to talk to some nice people for once… so plz no hate comments…and if youve made it this far, let me know what u think of me off this.