*Hello everyone I hope everyone is going well here , time really flies fast isn't it? 
I enjoyed my 6 months holiday twice past year but now it's just the opposite.
The thing is now i am working consistently on myself , being more optimistic ,following a schedule and yes i still have few hours of relaxation during which I go for evening walks I feel glad that I made this activity as my habit it's quite better than before 
 I still stick to sayings of love yourself ,love myself, Peace even though there are many others things to be included but for an ami it's enough ≧∇≦*

Happy

19th april is around the corner. 
Fir dil tootega, fir dil royega, fir dil khudko kosega. 
Nahi dekha jayega merese magar dekhna hai


3am Thoughts

Low 

Mental Health

Getting bored😪anyone up for a convo? 

Friends

Wait a minute. 

NOWANDME PREMIUM. 

Seriously? 

I've had a crush on this guy for like a month when I finally decided to tell him via my best friend because my best friend is his classmate, SOOOOO.... As soon as she told him his reaction wasn't really what I expected, and the first thing he said was "I don't think she's my type"... Alright fine, maybe I'm not his type but the thing that stung me the most was that he just judged me without even getting to know me. I don't really have a popular kinda vibe in school, infact I'm a totally different person in school than who I really am. And this actually made me realise that is that what all the other so called "popular kids" in my school think of me, do they think of me as a nerdy girl who just cares about her studies and is not "cool" according to them... Actually the thing is my biggest insecurity is that I'm an introvert and I can't talk to people as easily as they are able to, infact when I try to talk to someone I just end up embarassing myself.... And idk how but somehow it's lead me to hate myself cause literally no one can understand me, they think that I'm rude just because I'm "extra" shy and they cannot understand that it's just the way I am. I don't want to but I hate myself now, I never thought I'd say it but why was born the way I am... I hate it now, I just wish I was more outgoing. 

depressed as hell

Exhausted

My boyfriend is very controlling and critical. He has been giving me the silent treatment for a full 24 hours now, following a disagreement about driving at the speed limit. he thinks everyone should drive at/under the speed limit, which makes sense in a perfect world, but I was explaining that driving under the speed limit can be rude and dangerous. I wasn’t about to agree with him just to move onto a different topic. I said we should agree to disagree and that’s when the silence commenced. 
Last night he went and slept in another room. Usually i give him some space, and then start trying to get him to talk to me which he usually resists for a while. I haven’t even tried talking to him since he started, except a few cordial words that he pretty much ignored. Now I’m just crying in a part of the house where he’s unlikely to hear me feeling absolutely miserable. I hate it when he ignores me but I know he does it to punish me and waits me for me to bend and apologize first. I don’t know that I even have anything to apologize for but I’m usually so desperate that I do. I don’t know what to do. This is the third time in the past week. I’m just so exhausted and miserable.
Is this kind of thing emotionally abusive? I just need help. 

Emotional Abuse

Girl of age group 18-24 aren't much loyal and hence lead to another breakup due to cheating on the me. I once dated a girl between around 26 year old she was amazing in every context, I guess girls or age group 25-35 are much liable and trustable and understands more. 

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