he just makes me feel so fucking bad about myself- 
like all i want to so rn is curl up into a ball and die.. i cant take it anymore- i really cant...
i love him so fucking much.. but its oblivious he doesnt feel te same-

First thing first ending your life isn't the solution 🙂 second give first priority to yourself.... second make him pay for what he does make him realise what he have lost ....and don't think to much if he didn't feel the same way u does then it's okay

3am Thoughts

Is it really normal to feel hatred towards your father?🙂

Life

why later?

Whatever you're postponing or avoiding - create the space to do it now. We waste time waiting for the perfect moment. But the future is not guaranteed. Stop "saving" dreams, love, chances, difficult conversations, healing and growth for later. Experience your life; truly use it.

Adulting

Tu koi aur ta jo mujhe barbad Karne aya ta

I'm Quite confused and making myself feel even worst. 

Online bestfriend. So we always got along and we always Facetime and message eachother every morning and night letting eachother know were around and stuff. 

But Recently she brought up that she has exams coming up and we can not hang out after all the assignments and exams are finished.

Here is the thing that is making myself feeling confused and starting to make me feel anxious and depressed.

She goes on a mmo i go on once and a while and i do see her on all the time and always being active. Seeing her change channels and all meaning shes active and jumping to different things to grind. 

Have i done something to make her lose interest in me? have i upset her? have i annoyed her? 

She has been honestly the greatest person to have helped me with my depression and all the stress that i have as a young adult. Work and bills due to covid and stuff. Shes always been there when i rant and shared her my secrets and how i feel about being a kid who parents have abandoned me. I was there for her aswell when she lost her bestfriend i was there talking to her and make her feel better.

But after she brought up exams and me seeing her online it has really affected me. I know i should probably let her be and have all the time with her but me probably overthinking that she just lied to me and stuff. But honestly if it comes down to this horrible fact i would move on and be down for quite awhile. Just need someone to talk to and give me some guidance. Thanks in advance.~

Overthinking

overwhelmed and stressed as fuck. Like i got so much shit to do and idk where to begin lol. I really feel like its the same shit every day and like ofc i wanna change stuff to make it better and do better and be better but then again everything is just too overwhelming that i dont know where to start. At the same time i just need a pause button just to like stop for a second and slow everything waaaay down.

I really do wonder how do people balance life?? Like between work, friends, family, health, adulting, finances, hobbies, dating?? Thats what i mean by theres just too much stuff and its so overwhelming. Maybe im just a person who gets overwhelmed easily but still i sometimes i just think like how does anyone do it. Other times i just kind of like give up or think to let it all go like whatever happens happens you know and i’ll do what i can but then again i start thinking about everything and its so overwhelming its a vicious cycle tbh.

Oh and ofc the fact that im so overwhelmed and stressed is only making me feel EVEN MORE overwhelmed and stressed 🤣 i guess it be like that. for real though do u ever feel so overwhelmed and stressed u just dont know what to do anymore?? Where do we go from here :’) 

Stress

stressed, fearful , panic, anxious its a mixed feeling i have now idk what to do what's going on I'm just letting everything happen i can't plan things nor change i am just a damn frozen person looking my life getting ruined

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