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Having a toxic parent has caused a great trouble in growing up.it has transformed me into a negative thinker as i see every individual as a threat.i feel i have no one to stand by me, and understand my emotions.As a child they always used to cut my emotions by punishing me or by scolding me.we are three sisters and i am the middle one, so i was the least favourite, and my importance in the family did not matter much. I was always called by weird names like -“MOTA PLATE” and “DHAKKAN” and eventually my whole childhood passed like this.This childhood memories have ruined me and my confidence. I feel guilty for the things that i haven’t done.I feel guilty for feeling my emotions, I feel guilty for feeling so much.
These things took a brighter turn when my step dad started to touch me in my sleep. I was 15 or 16 when it started, i talked about this to my mother and she only said to fight back but never told how? She never fought for me, i lived my life in suffering. She still expects me to be in my best behaviour and respect that man as my father. I just want myself to be dead. I am exhausted.

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@dyingsoul

Next time ur step father touched u sexually then shout at him and tell both of ur parents that u will call police and u will tell this to each every family relatives .these guys cry for reputation don’t show them ur weak side represent ur slef strongest person whom they can mess around.and u have all right to call police if u r getting sexually harassed. And always try to improve ur personality mentally emotionally and physically. We r with u. this will pass till then try to make career so that u don’t need to depends on others and if u r studying then focus on that eventually it will help u to get rid of such toxic people

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Anonymous

I really want to get out of thie mess, i really want to build my career but its been really hard these days.i am just tired of listening that “you overreact and bas tumhe rona hi aata hai.”

jay @jay12

Hey calm down we can talk

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Anonymous

Thanks.it felt nice to hear that someone wants to talk.

jay @jay12

Sure we can talk if you want!

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Anonymous

Hey, I’m so sorry you had to go through this hell of an experience all alone! I’ve been through something quite similar and I can relate hoe toxic parenting and sexual abuse can mess you up. A few things though for you to remember in this tough time
1. You are so incredibly strong, you’ve no idea. I know you don’t want to be given the circumstances, but believe me you are. These people you are with are shjt for putting you through so much and not have empathy. Screw them, you’re amazing.
The part where you talk about having only bitter memories and a childhood not well lived resonates with me so much, I’m sending you all my love! xx
I’ve only recently come to a place where I no longer want to be bitter about my past and loathe or sulk, but make the rest of my life beautiful. While I hope you reach this place, I know it’ll happen to you in your own time and space, so I can only tell you to keep this dream of a better life alive and get help.
2. If you’re moms not entirely supportive of you and you’re still a minor or living under the same roof as that pervert, I highly highly suggest you get help.
There’s a site called Mindpeers that offers counciling at a nominal cost. That could be a good starting point, I’ll list other resources as I get the time :)
3. It’s totally completely normal to hate on somebody who has abused you, in fact it’s only natural that you do.
4. Try to get your mom on your side. When you mom says fight back, question this same thing to her - how?? How do I do it without your help?? Make her answerable to you and hold her accountable too. Though do it all tactfully in case she flips and decides to support that man.

5. Do you have any other family you can stay with while this is figured out? Reach out to them, or at least start confiding in your friends. Take a screenshot of this conversation because tomorrow that becomes your evidence that something traumatic really did happen to you and you tried your best to get help.
Your best case scenario right now is you and your mom living by yourself and leaving that man, along with putting him behind bars.
Your worst scenario -I hope this doesn’t happen, I’m only trying to warn and help you here - can be anything from your mom turning her back on you(which you already seem to be hinting she has), telling the step father about him and him either ignoring it, or getting even more violent. I know, not ideal, but this is how it usually pans out. I’m so sorry.
So you see, you need to gauge your situation very very shrewdly and get help as soon as possible.
6. Abusers and bystanders often try to gaslight and deminish their role in hoe they’ve pained you. Of course they’re going to tell you tum boht roti ho. DO NOT BELIEVE IT.
Again, yours is a very natural and human reaction to trauma, so don’t lose heart over this
Lastly, I know it may not seem like there’s much to live for at the moment, but please don’t talk of taking your life. Life can get so so much better once you’re out of this shit, though that not believable at the moment, it is very much possible, I’m saying this from experience. You’re only further letting your abusers win if you do something drastic with your life. Please stay, youre worth being fought for and have a right to dignified life. I love you. Stay strong, God bless ❤️❤️❤️

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Anonymous

Thanks for the support…❤

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