Have you ever gotten the feeling that all the people around you were fake,just a bunch of characters who can bail on you any moment? I have been feeling like this from maybe like 6 years and it makes me angry and afraid. People have groups with their trusted ones and I don't think I'm in any group. I'm merely a stranger to them and they acknowledge me as an acquaintance of theirs and they won't hesitate once before becoming enemies with me, not once. This feeling of weakness. I hate it. 

Would you like to talk about it? Guess I'll lend you an ear 😄✌️

I don't know why people leave us . It's been 5 years . Should I wait for her

One Sided Love

I'm so afraid idk what to do and I can't show or talk abt it other than here I'm preparing for upsc and i didn't wanted anyone else to know that , bht my father told everyone everything now whenever i go people ask me abt my preparation and it's making me so depresséd , i just started but I'm already feeling so much pressure and its suffocating me, messing with my preparation... I told my father not to tell anyone but he got mad and taunt "are you afraid" "bhigi billi hai kya" etc etc...i know as an future bureaucrat i shouldn't get bother by this but ..im not that ready yet I'm just preparing for prelims but thinking all of this making me so sad and depresséd 

3am Thoughts

The moon is beautiful, isn't it? 


Now&Me Meets

I'm feeling lone

It's something that will never fade away! I have only two options! One is to kill him first and then kill myself! Second is to flee away from everything and forget that I ever had a family! The first option looks very disturbed but I can't do anything about it! At least after that my parents will have some peace in their life! I don't know, what I should do! I have tried every other possible way to deal with him but it just doesn't work!  

feel like a loser

Depression

Don't love just make crush

Hello all, I just thought I'd put some good news, if anyone needs to hear. Awhile back had anxiety about my future. I didn't really talk to anyone for 2 whole weeks. When I was in college, and in an abusive relationship, I always found comfort in films, soulmate love, comedies, independent films, 80s, etc. I always took something from them on how to live life, it was inspiring, and uplifting in a way where everything I did, I would imagine it'd be in a movie one day, so make it good. As a kid my family was into films, so maybe it was a nostalgia thing. I think it was the same with books. Something about words has always enticed me, the communication aspect, the way it can make you feel, shift you, the different ways to say things to invoke a different meaning, reading stories that are so good and creative the mind of authors how they work, it's all so fascinating to me. And about a year ago, I began to write poetry because there are no limits with words, imagery, rhythm, story telling. Poetry was a better outlet for me than keep everything inside until the next panic attack. I want to share it soon, I am still contemplating ways to show my work, a creative way. Thank you for reading

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