Have been feeling real down lately, mostly suicidal thoughts, and reading into quieter mind goes on to more and more depression 

Your name Jay stands for victory my boy.
Come on we are good at so many things.
Take a break and try to upgrade your skills or pursue your hobby.

Feel free to talk ahead champ.
You gotta rock my boy 

Depression

I did not tell my family anything about me. Not because I cannot, it is because I chose not to. I do not trust them. 4 years, from hating for being sad and lonely to enjoying being sad and alone in my room especially in the dark. How wonderful, a space for my own and when it's dark, I cannot see a thing. Therefore, it felt as if I was living in an infinite space, feeling the strong gravity pulling down as I lied on my bed. It was only at that moment I wish time could stop forever or even better, take me to my novel world and let me discover what it is like to be loved and to fall in love with the main character, show me what it is like to feel free and enjoy everything the world offers, take me to places I could never reach in this real world, teach me what it is like to live without any resentment. Silly wish, but pure. 

Tired of my heavy coat of sadness, I want to rush to the wilds of forgetfulness, free from everything.

Life

I’m slowly starting to hate being around my girl and her friend 

3am Thoughts

I am studying 11 grade, I have lost all my routine usually I used to get 95% in my schl age before corona but now all went into dirt, not able to make a routine, I wanna study, my college is starting from tmrw, till today online.. From tmrw I wanna get back to study.. The timinhs are 8-430 .. Then when to study help me out!! Plz.. When ever I make a time table I skip it.. I dont know why.... Plz help me out!! I have a good aim to do with it.. Help me out!! 

College

Do you believe in love? Or it's just a movie trick? Or maybe people who say they have this love are simply blind? 

Love

I have an emotionally and verbally abusive husband . We have lot of animosity between us . He is very controlling and disrepectul . He is also very untrusting and always doubts me . He is socially reclusive and awkward and a loner too. He has zero friends and is unable to form any friendships or value any relationship. He doesnot even want me to form any friendships and his unsocial nature makes him unpopular in any circle we move around in . Because of him , i also dont have much of a social circle and it is so isolating for me . He is not much of a companion or partner to me either . I feel so suffocated in this marriage . 
He is not my equal in anything . Be it social nature, intelligence, emotional IQ , personality or smartness , i know that i am much better than him . But all my talents and qualities go down the drain because of the person i married. I really badly want out of this situation . I am financially dependent on him and i have a daughter to think of too. 
I dont know what to do here. Anybody has any word of advice for me? 

Emotional Abuse

im talking with my boyfriend again<3

LGBTQ

what is the real friendship, who is the real best friend? 
Vo jo mai glt rhu fir bhi mera saath de jha meri galti rhi wha bhi mere sath sath chle 
Ya vo jo jha mai glt rhu mujhe bataye ki mai glt hu mere against hoke mujhe samjhaye ?

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