Hate hate hate having relatives over at my house. Just hate it absolutely 

Toxic, nosy relatives are worse than having no relatives for starters. 
Only if you knew, how many of your dreams are crushed because of them, how they misbehave with you and your parents, how they take advantage of you and your parents and then never even call to check on us
So please, if you don’t have nay consideration regarding my worries, then don’t disvalidate what I have to go through them 

I hate relatives in general so high five! 

Anxiety

I need some input, what is the normal amount of physical interaction with your immediate family? And are your parents making sex jokes towards you normal or is it unnatural? 

Confusion

why is it that sometimes i get super pissed off by the presence of my own family? sometimes i’ll be by myself and they come and interrupt my peace. it makes me mood 10x worse . i try my best to be a nice sibling but it’s hard to be nice all the time. i know they just wanna spend time with me or tell my about an interest they have but i get angry for no good reason. i feel so mean.

Family

Do family problems exist in every family? Or it's only me that has to go through all thus without no fault of mine ! Need someone to share, maybe it will make my problems seem smaller!
Thanks 

Who's responsibility is to take care of the family (financially)?

3am Thoughts

Anyone dealing and surving family toxicity? Any advices?! 

I really hate everything...
I really hate how people talk behindi my back... then after that  whenever they say I am near them they always stops. 
I really hate how my cousin thinks I am making her life hard. Why? When we are still kids I've experienced what she's experiencing and yes I've cried but not really that much like she's doing like I am sort of a bad guy. 
I really hate how my cousins uniting whenever I am doing something whether its bad or good. Mostly bad. Am I that bad to not even say those words that they are saying in front of me? Am I that bad?
I really hate everything... geez. I hate those fucking plastic family of mine well not my parents and brothers for making me feel like shit everyday like everything that's happening to them is because pf me and my stupid acts. 
Yes I understand I often act sometimes like act before my mind. But is it enough for them to make me feel like this? Like I am the sole reason why they are suffering? Like they are in pain? They are making feel a worst person. 
Like seriously? I am just so fucking tired for all of this bullshits. I just want to end my life just because I am feeling worst. Like I am the worst person in the world.
Am I really bad? I always push away my little brother because it is making me feel shy and slightly awkward. I lie. I sometimes let my anger take over my supposed to be actions causing me to hurt my cousins in unintentional way but the way they viewed it was intentional. And I kind of hate my cousin too because of some reason. And I love my parents but I can't even show them how much I love them. I let them cook my meals which my family always say that I should be the one who's doing that because you know my mom have a sort of a mental illness while my father is always tired from work but because I am just a selfish teenager I can't even cook for them. I live away from our house I live  from my aunt and I don't have a good relationship when it comes to my grandmothers and relatives they always show how they are good to me but when I turn my back they always talk about me. Like I am sort of a bad kid. Like you know... I thought in America it is just normal for teenagers to act this way because of the rebel stage? But am I really rebel? I don't know what to think anymore. I feel like this is too much for me. And my parents whenver talk to them they talk like I always needed money. I reay hate everything.  Am I really bad? Maybe I am bad. They are all good anyway. And I am some sort of the worst member of the family. I am just lonely and sad and tired for everything. If I end my life will it really change anything? Will anyone cry for me? I hope this post will reach out to someone... I am really hoping. I am crying while typing this. Please.

Anger Issues

i think i have anger management issues and i don't know how to stop getting angry at everyone and every little inconvenience in my life. usually i don't hold grudges and get over things really fast but i haven't done that in ages. today i've cried 3 times over some things my family said towards me and it wasn't that hurtful but to me it was but i don't get angry over everything for nothing i'm more than likely always provoked from my family teasing me thinking its a joke and when i don't and start getting defensive they are always playing victim and its really starting to get at me because i know my dad means well but the rest of them don't show any other emotion towards me and i'm starting to hate myself because of all this

I am very misunderstood in my family. Nothing I do seems to clear it. Wish I had wings so I could fly away, far away.

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