Love

"Don't get upset with the mirror, fix the reflection"
what's the meaning behind that?

Quotes

I am feeling irritated because of one guy I left my job, I lost my self respect and because of him I am going through depression anxiety everything. I hate this feeling. I feel bring cheated after trusting someone to the core and breaks you like this. I wish should never happen to anybody.
But I don't know I want him back

Cheating

Just an hyy,😊

Friends

My boyfriend cheated on me and left me now I don’t know what to do, it was almost 5 years relationship. 

My dad is cheating on my mom.. My mom is in the office right now and my dad has gone to see his mistress.. He is with my mom only for her money.. That person always yells at my money.. Treats her very poorly.. Feeling terrible right now.. I guess it is okay if I cry right now.. 

Mom, 
This is for you. 
This is what I want to say to you, but I can’t, for fear of what you’ll say or do to me. These are the words I wish I could tell you without fear of rebuttal. These are the words that thunder in my head when I get angry or sad or frustrated. This is what I need to tell you, but I can’t because of how you will react and then control my life. 

I’m not perfect. I never will be. Yet you seem to not understand how I work. I am an extremely emotional person. I feel and act on my gut, even if it is not planned out. Sometimes you praise me for it, sometimes you condemn me for it. Sometimes I vent, not because I need a solution, but because venting releases this pressure on my heart, and lifts the weight from my shoulders. I try not to show you how I feel because you ALWAYS judge me for it, say you aren't, and then continue to belittle me for feeling. I can’t even contradict you for fear of you grounding me. I am afraid that if you ask what's on my mind, and I share what I am actually feeling and thinking, you will get mad at me for answering completely truthfully. But there are also times when I am so angry, the thoughts in my head turn to radio silence, and I can’t decipher this foreign language. There are so many things I want to tell you but I can’t.

I want to tell you I’m Pansexual, but you would just say I'm confused, or following a trend, or that I’m just gay because my friends are. That’s not the case. I want to tell you, I’m not Christian, without you saying that I just need to re-evaluate my relationship with God, or saying that I’m wrong. I want to discuss my beliefs and views on topics without you shoving what I am “supposed” to think down my throat. I want to tell you that I like something without you psychoanalyzing me because of it. I can just like something because I don’t need a reason.

Mom, you say you love me unconditionally. But why does that love feel conditional on me behaving and acting in a way that you find acceptable?  Just because I look like you does not mean that I am you. I have different goals, I have different beliefs. I AM MY OWN PERSON!!! 

I want to tell you that I don’t want to be a stereotype. I don’t want a big wedding, with a fancy white dress. I don’t want it to be held in a church. I don’t want to bear children. It’s not that I don’t ever want children, but I can adopt if I really want one! I want to tell you that I struggle with body image, and not have you ask where it came from. I want to show you the real me, but how can I when you could never love me for the way I am? You would love me “despite” or “even with” it. I want you to love me REGARDLESS! 

Because I am emotional. I feel everything. I’m not “hormonal” or “tired” or “stressed” or “hungry”. At that point, I am just so done, I can’t help being honest with you. I wish I could show you the real me. Not your “perfect daughter”. I am messy, I am still only 16. I’m mature physically, but in some ways I still am a kid. But you can only ever see me in one or the other. But I’m somewhere inbetween. 

And your “I really do love you”s feel more like an afterthought than an apology.

Mom, I love you. But you hurt me so, so much.


Frustration

Forever torn between young hai abhi isliye experience karlo cheeje saari and young hai isliye abhi career bana lo 

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