Frustrated af!!!!!! 
Paisa nhi bahot sara paisa chahiye 
Bc😤😤😤😤

Anger Issues

relation mai aana nahi tha mujhe lekin 6 mahine dost rehne k baad bar bar purpose krne k baavjood bhee relationship mai aaya ..
or relation ka 4.5 saal baad usnay newzealand jakar 7 mahine ma relation khatam kardia 🥹

Addiction

 Vo pagal bhi ye kesa kaam kar gaya 
Har gunaah meri manzil ke naam kar gaya 
Yu to chale the sath safar me hum dono 
Yu to sath hi chale the safar me hum dono 
Par utha mauke ka fayda vo mujhe badnaam kar gaya 

Vo pagal bhi na jaane ye kesa kaam kar gaya 

Har hadd ki hadd ka bhi ek theher aata hai 
Jis tarah samundar ke baad sheher aata hai 
Vo bhi tarsega ek din aisi hi mohabbat ke liye 
Jise aaj bhari hasti me vo neelaam kar gaya 

Vo pagal bhi na jaane ye kesa kaam kar gaya 
Utha mauke ka fayda mujhe badnaam kar gaya 

Har karni ke apne hi anjaam hote hain 
Jese ghamo ki mehfil me jaam hote hain
Dil tak ne gawahi na di uske gunaah par 
Dekho vo mera ghata sare-aam kar gaya 


Vo pagal bhi na jaane ye kesa kaam kar gaya

Ab mohtaj sirf meri maut reh gayi hai 
Jese yaadon par ye ek kharoch reh gayi hai 
Vo pagli khush ho rahi hai mujhe marta dekh 
Koi batao use, ye aashiq apni zindagi uske naam kar gaya 



Poetry

How bad it feels when
you don't have any right person to talk to
And iss time koi kese busy ho sakta hai?
Ese kese baat ho sakti hai
I think me hi velli ho gayi hu huh 
Jo reply kar deti hu

Life

Love shadi ye sab ham jaise logo k liyhe. Nahi

Affirmations

Kyu mujhe mere career se judge krte ho yar. Kyu meri job ko hi meri pehchan mante hai sab log. Bhai mai usse bahut alag hu. Mujhe Jaan to lo at least tum logo ne kyu ye beauty standards aur career standards set karke rakha hai. At least I earn for myself and I can manage my own food and clothes and expenses. Sometimes I feel I am too different to be in this world. And it's too difficult to adjust with such people. Mai school alumni days par nhi jati, dosto ki shadi me nhi jati, kyu? Kyuki  wha mujhe Aisa lgta hai log fir se judge karenge kon kaha kon si post par hai etc etc. I don't really like it. Kabhi kabhi ye saari life bojh jaise lagne lagti hai. Nhi fit hona hai mujhe kisi k paimano par. Han nhi hu mai acchi to thik hai na.. kuch log nhi hote acche. Mat Karo mujhse comparison. Mai khush hu jaisi bhi hu. Let me be in my own way.

Frustration

Hi guys
So  i am i a healthy relationship .. everything is going well its been 1 year now , he is generous caring .. pamper me on everything ... Like he is my perfect man  .. but i don't know sometimes when we don't talk because of any xyz reason  chahe kuch bhi ho... Ghr pr ho ya kuch bhi... Toh mere dimag me kuch ka kuch chlna start ho jaata h... That no he will leave me ... Uska mn bhr gya h ... He don't love me like earlier ... Mujhe pta h vo boht acha insaan h bt i don't know... Mere dimag me kyun itni baate aati h... Compared to my last relationship that guy my ex was way toxic...uski vjh se maine apni mental physical social saari health khrab kri thi ... Bt my present man ... He is really understanding... Bt pta nhi kyun m uski kuch baate alg way me interpret kr leti hu ... Because I don't want to get hurt again ... I get insecure that iske around colleagues h iski ...kisi or ko psnd kr liya isne toh... I don't know m overthinking krti hu jyada ya kya...bt in the end m yhi jaanti hu...mujhe fr se hurt nhi hona... Na m fr se kisi k aage joker bn na chahti hu ...na i don't want to lose this guy... I don't know what's this feeling ... A confusion or overthinking 😣

Relationships

Life already itni hard chal rahe h har din ek battle hn kudh se, exam main fail hone se itna dar ni lg rha hn jitna gharwalo k reaction se lgta hn, aisa lgta h Main ghum gye hu , jo thi woh ni rhe khush rhne wale hamesha centre of attraction Wale ladki ghum Gaye , jisko sab admire karty thy !. Thoda kudh ko sambhal rakha tha kl ek incident hua my dad slapped me for no Big reason. My mom said ke dad ko ghussa aagya beta let it go usko heart issues hain waise he , although mere dad ne subah mujhe sorry bhi bola!. But kal se ab Tak mujhe samjh ni aarha hain ye sab kia raha hain , ye saal sach main kuch jayada he kharab hain , mujhe samjh ni aarha hain kia horha hain sab stuck hogya hain aisa lag rha hain main stuck hogye hu ek stumbling block ke wajah se ... 

Other

Sab ladki ke dreams hote hai ki usne kese shadi krni hai because of society mei apne dreams pure ni kr payi. Why!! Because that was husband second marriage and addition to that he is already having a kid. Toh I got married in mandir now I see people getting married like the way they want. So I go upset seeing that what was my mistake that I didn’t married like the way I want to !!! Kabhi kabhi lgta hai I need a psychiatrist jisse mei apni sari bt share kru qki husband se kro usko lgta hai ki mei complaint kr rhi hu parents ko kuch bol ni skte because that was my decision.I really need to talk to someone regarding this.

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