Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

from middle school to college, it’s been a long time hasn’t it? we never had a healthy genuine relationship but the genuine feelings were there. we both loved each other and we dated yet it was nothing but toxic. always on and off. you’d get mad if i spoke to other guys. you had a gf once and yet told me you loved me at the same time. i was mad at that. i moved on, became close to someone else. you didn’t like that even though you still had a gf. you broke up with her, contacted me. i gave in. we broke up. i gave in. we broke up. on and on and on again all through high school. you told everyone you broke up with me, that’s not true. you told everyone i threatened to kill myself if you broke up with me, that’s not true. you did that and i kept quiet. even then we never ended on bad terms. we don’t hate each other. and now? you just broke up with your other gf right? now you’re coming back again? i wish you would just leave me alone. you’re not good for me. why do you always choose me to hurt after something goes wrong? you don’t love me, don’t you realize that? stop telling me you do.