*Friends come and go like the waves of the ocean, 
but the **true ones** stick like an **octopus** on your face.* 😁😉

Wow. Some true wisdom right here. 😄✌🏼❤️

Friends

Do i feel or everyone feels, these days people on this app is becoming too judgemental.
No one can write anything peacefully.


Now&Me Feedback

Okay so I’m new here and speaking of my past long term relationships they have been traumatic, both the guys cheated on me. Post which i have major abandonment issues, i get stressed and irritated easily. Im in a relationship right now and the guy im with is super sweet and understanding but at times i feel like i put too much burden on him with my trust issues (ps its not like he has been perfect he too had lied various times and deleted chats behind my back. But being in that constant state of not knowing whats going on or if it will happen again) going through all these emotions of my past kills me inside so i choose to push people away. My current bf tells me he hasn’t cheated on me and never will but his actions have made me question the whole relationship. I love him but i dont know why i feel like i have all these insecurities and abandonment issues from the past. What do i do with this constant stress and irritated outbursts + anxiety? :(

Stress

a.o.m.e
I. 
in every note, dream and thought
smile on my face you always brought
as i stare on the window, up in the sky
i then knew, you're the apple of my eye.

II.
different feelings i feel from you everyday
you painted colors on my sky once gray
you in my mind as my favorite music play
i cant help it as i danced my night away.

III.
lonely days doesn't seem too lonely
spending my time thinking about you only
is that bad? but it really makes me happy
then i remember you're mine, how lovely.

IV.
everyday i wake up waiting for you
for another day, with my love i look up to
may this thing between us still continue
i love you really, so much its true.


(i was really proud of this poem that i made a year ago, ill share it for the people here :D)

Poetry

Honestly I've stopped holding people's hands like while walking....
Coz I've realised that they don't hold back.... Like they just keep it straight or hanging...
Like I'm the only one holding it 
So better let it be...
I'll just put them in my pockets and I'll keep walking... 


3am Thoughts

How to do away the fear to get judged.

Anxiety

I try to understand life but I just cant. Why are we on this earth? Why do some people have mental disorders and others dont. Why was I made with a weak will but others strong? Why cant I take this mental illness? Why does it make me feel like I want to end it all but others push through it? Its not fair. I didnt ask to be here. I dont want to be here. We live in a world where people constantly put others done to lift themselves up. Where people are cruel to each other because of the color of their skin or their economic or socio status. Theres no peace here. If its not one thing then its another. The world is against human beings, or specifically the weak minded people. Like me. Why fight and struggle to be here when you can literally just put a stop to it. I dont get it at all. At this point theres nothing anyone can say to me thatll make me change my mind. I dont want to live. Im not going to kill myself. But I dont care what happens to me at all. I will continue to make these reckless decisions because who cares? People fake care all the time and honestly I think its just to make themselves feel better. They dont want to carry the guilt, even though they dont have to cause its not their guilt, or feel bad for someone else taking their life. You dont know them. Youre not going to be there to help them through their troubled time, youre just here for this very small moment to make them feel better for the next minute or hour or however long until they feel bad again. I think its a very selfish thing for someone to want someone else live for them. Why? Why do you want me to continue to go through pain the rest of my life to keep your conscious clear? I dont get it. Please please for the life in, stop telling me "youll get through it" "fight for yourself and loved ones" "people need you". I dont care. I'm just here to write my thoughts..maybe find like minded people. Or maybe even see if someone could change my mind, which I doubt. Thank you to anyone who read this. 

Life

My friend has a habit of saying sorry a lot whenever he makes even a slightest mistake specially when he says something to other people . I always wonderd why he did that so I asked him. He told me he loved this girl and because of him saying stupid things without thinking they both had a break up he said after losing someone I loved so much because of his stupid mouth he always makes sures that he apologises.

Breakup

Leaving a good morning message for someone hoping when he gets up he will have a smile on his face and his day goes good. But i know no message will come in return and cant expect a good morning mesage with how the situtaion is going on . Just hoping his day goes well.

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts