For the first ever, I feel like I'm useless.
Use for people useless for me useless for my career everything and best thing is this thought comes when I got used by someone emotionally, mentally and #physically.....was I really a slut.
Where were my ethic values my sense of humour dude. 

Well... U don't need to be useful, we're all useless if you think about it 

Emotional Abuse

Clawing at the surface
Of the water that drowns you
Struggling to get that breath
That you so desperately need
Ever-growing pressure
That builds upon your chest
All of the thoughts vanish
You're reeling from abruptness
It can be hard to explain
Hard to understand
The way it feels inside
To someone without anxiety.

Depression

Taylor's any lyrics?

3am Thoughts

What were you before you met me?"
"I think I was drowning"
"And what are you now?"
"Water
Can anyone explain this ? 

I don't know what has happened to me 
I'm alone since a long time
Had a break up 
I don't like to talk to my friends 
I can't move on 
I don't know why I regret breaking up with her 
I saw one of my exes today and she was with her friends nd like chilling n all 
I have seen her many times 
But i don't know why i regret about leaving her 
I feel guilty for many things 
I don't have control on me
I was never like this before
I was so happy and was doing well
But i think I'm finished now
I don't like to dress up
I don't like to go anywhere
It's like i wanna be alone 
But don't wanna feel lonely
Things were great before
I think I've lost myself 
And have became a loser 
I want to talk with people 
I want to be happy again
But i feel jealous whenever i look anyone
And regret leaving them 
I feel like crying most of the times
I want to get my old life back 
But don't know how 


Lonely

My crush said he doesn't think it will end well. I feel stupid for getting involved. I feel alone. I don't want to keep going anymore. I'm so down. I feel a pit in my upper stomach below my lungs. I don't see the point in doing anything for myself because Ill fuck it up like all my jobs and interests and academic pursuits. I can't even friend correctly. I've barely started taking care of my room. I stopped working out long ago. I'm almost 23. This is bad. 

I hate to see myself wasting 

missing your own energy?like what happened to me? Yeah that shit hurts

i know it's not good to self medicate (i forgot that word when u think u have an illness so u assume you have it) but i just think i may have depression and ocd, im not really sure since im no psych and ive never met one since money issues but i have this feeling it's either of those, or i may be just doing all this because of hormones, but then again it happens too often i think it could be possible, i dont even want to admit it because my mom might just think it's not real lol

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