Feeling very helpless & šš. After being dumped & cheated twice, I finally found my true love who knew all my insecurities & trauma. I came into relationship with him only because he assured me we would get married but after dating 8 months heās saying he canāt commit to marriage because of his momās mental health issues which sheās suffering from past 2 months.
He has given me a rough idea that if his mother gets back to normal then only he will talk to his parents for our marriage but has told me not to keep any hopes regarding marriageā¦although he is ready to continue the relationship or breakup only with the condition that Iāll not cry alone but Iām dying here , crying my eyes & heart out with the pain of him giving up so easily. šš
He still loves me & keeps a check on me cares for me but Iām completely devastated & shattered knowing the fact that we wonāt end up together.
I used to fight a lot with him & Iām not sure if heās just making an excuse to get rid of me or my toxicity has ruined the love he had for me.
Kindly suggest me what should I do?
1. End the relationship & just stay in touch as friends because it would be really hard to let him go all of a sudden
2. Or shall I just go with the flow & try to win him back with my efforts to correct all wrong I did to him
Iām feeling very suicidal only with the thought of him being a complete stranger to mešššplease help me with your kind words & suggestionsšš»
Hey, This reply is probably a bit late but tell me, how are you now? Have you eaten anything or not for last day? Have you slept at least for few hours?
Thanks for checking in. Iām still stuck in thinking as to what should I do.
Just sleeping more than normal to avoid all thoughts & anxiety ,crying myself to sleep every night & canāt even meditate without shedding tears, lost my appetiteā¦I wonder how will I survive through it
Iām a bit concerned as you mentioned āsuicidalā in your post more than once. You have to understand these feelings come to everyone but it doesnāt require anything drastic to get fixed. We can have a google meet/call or anything to let your feelings pour but you really have to understand that this is not the end of the world. Iām here!!