Feeling lost... Lost my job due to covid and no one who I have connected has given me a positive response.. Always makes me wonder does getting somewhere because of your own efforts and abilities a myth...?


Unemployment

The only worthwhile comparison is YOU yesterday vs YOU today. If you want to be happy, you got to focus on that. 

Quotes

but falling for you was my mistake

Other

There are so many people around us, forget the world, but when we step out we see dozens or hundreds of faces (depending on where you live) everyday whom we've never met and never will. Then why do just one or two people tend to affect our life so much? Thinking and overthinking about what a few people think of you and what they see you as, when it is so insignificant after realizing the bigger picture, is so futile. 
Learning to love and enjoy yourself is not as easy as it sounds, but it is so important. Because in the end, no matter what happens, all you have is you and if you are lucky your family. People come and go but you will remain with you no matter where you go. So start being honest with yourself and not with other people, because everyone is the main character in their own life. And pretending like another person cares more about you then they do about themselves is kiddish. 
Start spending time with yourself and doing activities you like, stop thinking about other people. And if youre not then great, its probably just me. And yeah who gives a fuck about being a loner, its awesome because people suck and they always find a way to dissapoint or annoy you eventually. so fuck them and love me 

3am Thoughts

I need help..
I recently found out my friend has been cutting. For a while. And all I want to do is help her and stop her from doing it. I cry whenever i think about the subject because i cant bare to even think about the fact how she must have been feeling. When I found out I gave her a hug and she immediatly started crying. I want her to feel safe and that she can come to me. She seems like such a happy girl and I never would have thought this would have happened. The way I found out is I asked her why she was wearing a hoodie ( It was 90 something degree's out ) and she said " im scared". I will never forget those two words. I then said scared of what. She shrugged. I wasent sure what was wrong so I just started thinking of reasons why should would be scared. I then asked "did you cut yourself" I dident think that she would say yes I thought she would laugh and say no ofc not. She was silent. I then hugged her and we went home from the park. We have been friends for years and I cant believe she went through that. And I almost harmed myself after finding out because I dident want her to go through it alone. But i dident because i dident want to put more on her. All I'm asking is that anybody that has harmed before just tell me what you wish somebody would have done to help...  So many people go through these things feeling alone and I cant let that happen to her. Thank you to anybody who read this

Self Harm

Every valentine's day, remembering rejections and pain. How many survivors of unrequited love here..?

One Sided Love

I feel this urge to talk to someone today. Like real bad. But idk who to talk to. I’ve pushed so many people away and now I’m left with no one. I wish i could talk to someone i know. I feel so sad today ughhhhh hate periods 😭

Frustration

Exam's tomorrow and i just started unit 1

I'm so exhausted pretending I'm okay. I'm not okay, I'm actually super bad with regards to my mental health. I'm done with this life, just take me away

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