Feel like loser in both life… Professional and personal. I am not there where i should be in my career even though i am capable of all what i want.
And in personal life i am again loser, got cheated on in both relationship… moved on… But may be i got damaged so now low self esteem, depression all the time overthinking with negative mindset. Trying hard to be positive but seems failing there.
Have known a guy for more than 2 years… Never planned to fall in love again… tried to Keep my walls up… but failed… n now it seems i am again the only one who has fallen in love… or is it just attachment… or is it just my overthinking… can’t differentiate anymore… He seems perfect partner for me, i feel free with him. May be he has idea about what i feel or may be not… Sometimes i feel he cares and sometimes not.
But now my marriage got fixed with someone else n now i am mentally fucked up.
Sometimes wanna break my engagement and start over my life. Or sometimes wish to be loved back by that guy for whom i fell for.
Or sometimes feel like okay go ahead and get married anyway someday i have to and he seems a nice guy.
Tired of overthinking…
Want to be happy when i get married but it seems impossible to me now. I am trying.
Just one thing to say for both of your lives personal and professional.
Shoot your shot. Aim for the sky, even if you miss you were already on land.
