Everyone is going to watch movie,going out for fun and making their life beautiful but i am in a miserable state ...
I don't have anyone to go out with me and spend good and quality time 
I feel sooo lonely dude i am feeling like cryinggg 😭😭😭😭

Kese btau bhai no one takes interest even i try to talk i am at worst of my life i guess

Lonely

I'm getting bored 😒

Insomnia

People have left me many times. Sometimes they did me wrong, and sometimes time made them go away(and I don't blame them for that) . It's just hard. When you like someone and then you have to let them go. It breaks your heart. Now, i am not getting too attached to people. Maintaining my distance. Not letting them see full me. So that even if they leave me I won't get that hurt. But it's hurting my heart too. Now i don't know what's right and wrong. 

3am Thoughts

Don't go tonight
Stay here one more time
Remind me what it's like, oh
And let's fall in love one more time
I need you now by my side
It tears me up when you turn me down
I'm begging please, just stick around

I'm sorry, don't leave me, I want you here with me
I know that your love is gone
I can't breathe, I'm so weak, I know this isn't easy
Don't tell me that your love is gone
That your love is gone 💔😔



At the starting of this sophomore year i met a guy he was the captain of the soccer team. He  appeared a very annoying person to me and I did not liked him at all he annoyed me a lot never left a chance to pull my leg. One day our professor paired me with him for an assignment and trust me I tried a lot to make our professor change switch partner but he knew what he was doing. Day by day he kept doing what he's best at annoying me or teasing me all I wanted was him to get him off my back and I just wished when will this assignment will complete and I get away from him but when did this turned into me never wanting him to go away from me times passed by from annoying him turned to loving him when I met his family around easter time when I couldn't go back to my home his family felt so much homely. He invited me to his family home so I don't stay alone on the festive of easter. Day passed by we became close didn't know when I fell for him but I just did only to know that he always had a crush on me since day one. And now the phrase "loves comes knocking at your door unexpectedly" makes a lot sense to me.  💕

Boyfriend

human sucks

I wake up this morning at 5:30 to pack my younger brother tiffin with his school..
Although its same everyday 

But today it was something else,
It was so peaceful no noise at all could hear cutting of an apple, boiling of milk and a drop of water in basin 
It was so calm 

For a moment I forget every problem in my life and wanted to live in this moment…

I AM VERY HURT AND SAD ..😔
My bestie and her family shifted to another city a month ago..she is  like my real sister..we used to  stay together almost the whole day.. just sleeping different..that also was same on weekends..we are bestfriends since 6 yrs..we used to do everything together..like attending online classes together..as we lived in same street it was easy going to each other's house.. from breakfast to dinner to watching endless Netflix shows to listening our favourite songs..to twinning clothes almost everyday..from our own patch ups to break-ups.her parents treated me like their daughter...and same did mine we are like twin sisters..soul sister
But now she just changed and is just avoiding me..
She doesn't reply my texts for hours..we decided to talk everyday which came down to once a week that too for max 20 minutes.. even she's online she doesn't reply on whatsapp or insta..once we were talking and she told she needs to prepare for her exams and hangs up.. after half an hour I saw her snaps hanging out with new  friends...she also removed me from her close friend list.she is ignoring me..I feel so hurt...I even asked many times but she just told that I am misunderstanding or she used to change topics..I cried several times...I don't have any friend except her.. I feel really really sad..today was our 6th friendship anniversary..we remembered it because her mom clicked a pic on first day of her school and when we met  and she wrote the date on it..she forgot it..I can't believe it.even one of our close friend remembered it.we celebrate it every year...but today she went on her new friend's birthday party..
I AM HURT 😭😭😢😢

I feel so scared every time a person from my school or college talks tome. Like they expect me to talk about some crazy adventures ive been on but i havent. Life has been shit. Its still shit. People have been around the world, done so much crazy stuff, getting married, etc and here i am, still the same, in my parents home, striving to complete my studies with bare minimum that doesnt look like its going to happen. I know i shouldnt feel this way but whenever that happens, i feel so ashamed. Like the feeling of not mattering is too much. There are these times when i feel like a complete loser. I shouldnt but i do. The crazy thing is i dont think there is any obstacle thats stopping me so idk i just wallow and wallow in self pity.

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