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Anonymous

Everyone always says that I matter and am wanted but I dont feel that way. And Im kind of at the point where I dont care to be here anymore. I dont really want anyone to want me or anything. I dont want to be loved or be important someone. I just want to disappear into a black hole. I didnt ask to be born. I obviously didnt want to be here if I was a month late lol. I told my mom she shouldve had an abortion with me. Her life wouldve been better. I believe so. I believe that my siblings would have a better life without me too. They wouldnt have a half sister. A sister thats different than everyone. They probably wouldnt be so poor like we are now. One less person to worry about. My dad would probably be the happiest if my mom had an abortion since im not even his blood childโ€ฆ sometimes i think he really despises me but tries not to show it. I know deep down he would be happier if i wasnt here. Cause then he wouldnt have to be taking care of a child that isnt his and focus on his real children. Most of the time I dont feel wanted by my family. But sometimes i get a glimpse that they would be hurt if i was gone forever. I dont want to hurt them which is why i havent killed myself yet. However I do believe theyd get over it and be better afterwards. I dont know why they cant just be like my biological father and not care about me lol. I am not sure what the point of this post was for. I just dont really wanna be alive. I dont have the energy to wake up everyday and walk out of my room. I dont even have the energy to open my eyes in the morning lol. I dont have a purpose or reason to be here. I just wish everyone would let me go so i can go. I dont know what ths feeling isโ€ฆI just feel empty and blank. Idk i dont really care. Has anyone else felt like this before?

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@ijustneedhelpdude
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Yeah, Iโ€™ve felt this. And itโ€™s completely shit, shitty, the shittiest to shit to ever be shit. I have no idea how to fix it, but if you ever want to talk, Iโ€™m here :)

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Anonymous
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Nice to know theres other people out there lol. Thank you for listening.

@ijustneedhelpdude
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always welcome :)

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Crystal @asilents00l

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Deep breaths, anon. Let me start off by telling you that you are indeed valid and you matter so much. Even though those words might sound like nothing to you, all Iโ€™ll do is whisper you โ€œhold on, it will be alrightโ€ Because holding on, and finding solutions for how you feel will be the best thing to do. Family is an important thing in your life, especially when we are minors. Itโ€™s kind of a thing that we used to look up to as kids and the thing that affects us the most when it comes to how we think or our habits. I know that how you feel might feel like hell, but this is not the end! I am sorry that you feel like this, but I can assure you that it wonโ€™t stay like this for ever. If no one cared, then you wouldโ€™ve been all alone on the streets now, with nothing. But hey! Think about the positive side. You said that sometimes you feel that small glimpse of them wanting you to stay, so that is why you donโ€™t want to end your life. I want you to enjoy life and find your path. Sorry for this rushed message, I wrote this in classโ€ฆ Text me on instagram if needed. @asilents00l

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Anonymous
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No worries i appreciate you taking your time to reply. Its so funny cause it never accrued to me that minors would be on here but those are usually the most troubled peopleโ€ฆi should know lol. Im currently 22 and ive had episodes of depression before but this is by far the worse and dangerous only cause irdc what happens to me anymore. At this point i just feel like a robot i dont even feel like a person. i dont really feel anything. Idk if youll come back on here, i wouldve hit you on ig but im currently at work on the computer lol. Thank you for listening.

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