Every little thing affects me so much now. I used to be numb to all this. But now it affects me. So much to the point that I’m crying. I don’t want it to be this way. Not feeling anything was so much better.

Yo so tomorrow i have to go n get put on birth control yo like tf yo i dont want to be put on that shit like fr yo like ugh just let me get pregnant like fr yo  

Other

Does overthinking always bad….? Or it helped you as well….?

3am Thoughts

So during my summer alot of stuff has happened. I hurt my parents by lying and decieving them, i kept soo much stuff hidden. When they found out they were not happy. My dad had called me a disgrace and a failure. I truly believed his words. I was so upset and angry i thought taking my life would be the best solution because without me there there would be no more pain for my family. I made an attempt and then things went down hill from there. Although i don't have suicidal thoughts anymore i still feel really bad and broken over it.  Its like i cant forgive myself for what i did. And right now i feel really sad and upset. It just never seems to go away. I am 16 and sometimes i hope that this would be my last year to live.

Mental Health

Zindagi ne zindagi bhr gum diyeee😭😭

Depression

Not bad

Career

How would u react when everytime people are complaining about u including ur family...and slowly u are going in depression...🙃 

Anxiety

hey y'all, how's everyones day going so far?

Acquaintance

**[Trigger Warning!]**
Hi everyone! This time I am going to talk about my mental health and what I have been thinking recently. This is going to be a loonngg post. And a lot of stuff I say here is **VERY DYNAMIC/EXTREME** so please don't read if you think you will be inclined to post a negative comment. I am hoping to find a friend who probably has a very dark volatile thoughts too.

So, recently I had very strong suicidal thoughts. Right now I am okay and hoping I don't have those urges again. I am writing this so that I can vent out before those thoughts kick back.

I have **very different** point of view from my family and I never was really able to tell them how I think. My sister (probably) fell in love with a guy from another religion. Now she is an outcast from the family. Only I secretly talk to her. She went to another country. My family told me that she is a very bad person and have tried to unveil secrets of other family members. A part of me doesn't believe this so I talk to her but at the same time, what if she really is evil? What if she tell my parents in any way I talk to her? I have no income! What will happen to me? By the way I was the one who told my family about the affair. Not with bad intention ofcourse but because the boy didn't seem right to me. I don't know whether she knows this or not.

My family makes me feel so negative. Negativity surges in my body whenever I see any of their face! Imagine just by seeing their friggin face!!

I am an agnostic. I don't know whether god exists or not. A part of me does want to believe so that I can say to myself that a divine entity is with me but... where is god?? Little girls getting raped and killed! What was there fault?? Did they do something in their previous life? Even then such a punishment??

My traditional religion teaches me to get my head cut for my, you can say messenger from god. Like what the FU*K?? It says they did this for them or that for them. You know, like a martyr. So like I was sent to this world to suffer it's bullshit and get my head cut in the end? Yeah that's nice. Wow such a martyr way to die.

I never wanted to come to this world! My parents gave birth to me so that they can have support for **themselves** when they are old. And my religion says give huge, like **HUGE** respect to them. For ruining a life for their own advantage? Yeah I should give them respect for ruining a life, my life! And then they show like they own us?? What the **FUKK**??

Currently I am trying to apply for a college in another state. But due to covid, it is not opening. Now I am so disoriented whether **if** I find my love, whether I should follow my love or be scared of being outcasted from my family.

So much questions, so much thoughts. Will I be able to survive the harshness of time? I don't know. I am just going with the flow. If you read this friggin long post😂😂 love you. Thanks a lot! It means a lot!

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