Love

I want everything to stop!!

FOMO

The end is near

Time

This is my sea

Anxiety

who is right always tom or jerry ? 

3am Thoughts

i feel so overwhelmed rn

what's that one song you can sing along with your lungs out 

Feels like theres nothing right going on in my life, theres full chaos.

Life

Dear Ivy,
I had no where to go. I do not know where and to whom to turn to.
I signed up here. 
You were the voice of reason. You'd put things into perspective and tell me what I'm doing is right because what I seem to do is wrong.
People assume I'm doing well and obsessive. But I'm not. I'm nervous. Everything I do is wrong. I miss out details. I don't review my work. I'm on site everyday to repair any wrongs I do. Everyday I feel they will find my fault and point it out and rub it in my face.
I'm a nervous person. I just figured that out. I'm not obsessive. I am nervous. They will find out I am so flawed and figure out I am not that smart after all. 
I'm drowning in faults and the need to repair. I am weak and helpless.
I want help.
Incapable, hopeless, lost and disoriented.
I wish you were around to tell me it's ok to feel lost once in awhile. Like smack me in the head and say, don't keep saying yes. 
I lost my mojo again. This time, I am alone. We'd lose our mojo together and just pick each other up and have cakes and coffee. Laugh our troubles away.
I wish I could have done that with you. Laugh until your pain went away. Or created more good pain because you laughed too hard. 
I want to be sad that you're not here.
I want to be cry that I'm overwhelmed with work and promises.
I want to be angry about the new boss.
I want to be angry to leave the office after 9 years. 
I want to cry, scream and be sad.
I want to feel worth, brave and strong.
I want to feel what I am doing is right. Right by them Right by me.
I want to stop defending myself. What I am doing is right. Right by me. 
But is it?

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