Don't know what's going on in my life..Studies not going well...The girI love is with my best friend now..She knew I had feelings for her but both were just dumb ..Then the talking got less and she was away from me with someone else but yet I was her "bestfriend".Some days back I got to know that she too had feelings for me but that was some months back..and you know what's the sad part is...she thinks that I have no feeling for her now..Well she makes crazy plans and what not that we share the best bond but at some point she doesn't like if I talk to other girls..I tease her a lot in the same context :,-)
I think I should wait ...wait for her..be it the next 2 years of my college life or 5-6 years..but I think I should wait..because to be honest I don't even like to talk to other girls than her...I can't even remember the last time I talked to a girl other than this one..Your views !!??

I too sometimes think for the same thing but at certain point I feel like I should not leave her.. Even from her side ..she wants that me and her never get apart..like she wants me to stay in her life..and what I feel is she somewhat wants me in her life not as a normal friend...and I think more than a bestfriend...

Crush

How to move on? Its really getting hard for me.
Bc my ex girlfriend first we broke up. After that we just cut off all contact. After 3 months some how we crossed our paths. And she huged me that day. I felt bad we started talking again hanging out daily. Every thing was coming to good place. Now few days back suddleny. Her long distance ex came to our city. That day she went to meet him and stayed whole night with him. And 2 days back she said im thinking about us. Even after this i forgive her and stayed but today. Suddleny her words changed. ('Her sayings' sorry but im with him now)
Now next day some big issuess happend in her family with the same guy. We meet she cried and told this time i have to leave him.
2 days before.this thing happend .
Today i found out she was on a call with him.
Now i asked her what you want. She said i just want to clear some things with him.
I am really deppresed. Im almost facing this bad rides from last year now. I waiting for so long. I did everything which will save this realtionship.
I lost my all friends beacuse of this things. Today no one is there with me. 
I want to leave this even im very postive whole day. In the end. I end up missing her. 


Breakup

Today for the 1st time in last 5 years i didn't talked to that  one person i considered my all. She is great as a person but i dont know why she changed so drastically as she stepped into her college. She isn't ready to accept that she is in relationship whereas i even asked her if she is not comfortable to share about me atleast tell people that she is committed and there have been so many complaint which i made peacefully. I still hold great respect for her but i feel like i am being taken for granted. I was expecting her to care but she isn't kind anymore. I don't know how to deal with this situation for the first time i choose not to text/call ended up getting none from her

Adulting

Unpopular opinion: Boys too have mood swings. Here is a justification👇🏻

This girl, I met her on discord and now we've exchanged numbers and all. We talk constantly but our ideology/mindset is not similar so I just feel like stop talking to her at all and carry on with my stuff. But again, sometimes I feel I should just text and her and talk as if nothing happened. It's just that I know my limits so I'm able to control my emotions and impulsive decisions. We are still connected but I don't feel like talking to her. IDK how's it going and how its gonna end up. I mean she is very nice, patient and humble and I accept that I sometimes get rude(I also apologised to her) but I cannot handle this anymore. I think I'm faking out my personality. We haven't met yet and not even possible because we are 1000 KMs apart. We barely talk on calls, its just normal texting.

Frustration

So finally I'm going to breakup with her like today it will be final. She thinks I go to her for only getting psychical. She can see that my love language is that. So I called her last night and said I don't want this relationship more coz I can't stay were my beloved thinks I'm using her like you're also getting hurt and me too I want to over it. Then now she has started releasing that she was worng and to get back what should I do.......

Anxiety

Feeling a little sad...want her to reply to my texts. She doesn't indulge in the conversations like I do. Whenever she text me.....I leave all my work to reply to her.......but when I text........reply comes after an hour, sometimes after days.....
What to do?

I’m sad. There’s this girl who I love, our 3 year anniversary was in November. Everything felt like it was so good in our relationship. And for 2 years it was so perfect. Some friends even said like a fairytale. She is a lot older then me, and had been married in the past. She had been acting off, almost like she was trying to find things to argue about. And we never used to really argue. But she had been nit picking at little things she’s never cared about before. Etc. I felt something was up so I had went through her phone. Only to see there was a text to her ex wife, “you should have let me rub you down.” It’s been 2 weeks since I saw that and I have just grown so much sadder. I was diagnosed with MDD and BPD and have been trying to manage it, with tips I received from tons of counseling. But god it’s just so hard now. She proposed to me a couple of days after and I said yes. I just hate this because I love her so much, and we have been talking about getting married for a while. And this would be my first time getting married, so why not with someone I’m absolutely in love with? But now I just can’t help but be sad. We talked about it since then and she said she was just joking and how it was a joke. But you don’t joke like that with your ex! You don’t, it’s practically a universal rule. And I told her I couldn’t trust her anymore, especially in talking with her. and she said “I know but ever since We got engaged I haven’t.” Like okay so you act like we weren’t together a whole 2 years before that. And we were friends before we even got together. So I’m just feeling incredibly betrayed right about now. And kicking myself why I even said yes. Even more so, because why did she wait till now to even propose??? Because she just didn’t want to lose me and this is her last Hail Mary? Am I just overreacting? I don’t even know at this point and it’s giving me a headache. My heart is just hurting wondering I deserved it. Because to me, it sounds like she cheated with her ex wife. And all of this just has me crying my eyes out tonight. 🤧😢

So me an My ex broked up 15 days back. She came back and said i care for you just stay in contact. Now we talk 10 mins a day.. But from her behaviour it seems she doesnt need me anymore. She says she needs me but thats not the thing. I mean i can sense she is very happy and acts like she is guilty and all. Anyways What should i do should i cut off totally.

3 Months of break up and she has already got a new boyfriend, She broke up telling me she does not want to be in any relationship, and it is not because of me. But right now listening to stupid slow songs all i can do is cry, How can someone unlove so quickly, How can she move on , and why its fucking hurting so much?


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