Doing this for the first time…
I married my boyfriend of seven years… Everyone warned me about him not being right for me… my parents, my friends, and my dear ones… said things which are now turning out to be true and not even two complete years of our marriage.
He is always bad-mouthing me, abusing me and when the temper is bad he has tried to hit me a few times too… I cannot get out of this marriage because I literally fought my parents and convinced them for this marriage. There is no escape for me.
But my husband is not always the bad guy, there are times he treats me like a princess and then days he hurts my feelings ignores my pain, and is busy with himself. People would suggest we should communicate since we have been friends for so long, but honestly, I am scared of him now. I am scared to talk about how I feel with him. I never know when something would upset him and he might lose his patience and starts to abuse me. He tells me because of you my life is ruined and don’t talk to my friends anymore.
I, on the other hand, left my parents’ house, shifted to a new city, left all my friends, my whole life to be with him. I don’t have any support system. During a fight, I left the house and after walking out the doors I realized I have no place to go.
I have no one who would understand what I am going through. I cannot talk about my feelings to anyone. I just pray to God now to take my life so all the miseries come to an end because i cannot find any escape.
I know nothing seems rational when you are in a situation like this, but from an outsider looking in, you ALWAYS have a choice to leave - and you should.
First of all, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE make sure that he cannot find out that you posted this in any way, shape, or form. I am not trying to scare you into not reaching out, I simply want you to be safe, and if your husband is abusive, you’d probably prefer for him not to find this.
Second of all, I really, really hope that you are on birth control. That could make things so much more complicated if you were to become pregnant.
I want to express to you that this is an abusive relationship. I know when the good times seem just SO GOOD, you can convince yourself it will get better, or he is worth it. He isn’t. No one is worth getting abused mentally and physically, over and over, just for the moments when they aren’t abusive. You are worth so much more than that.
I encourage you to reach out to your friends and family, even if you think that they are no longer in support of you. Especially if he is the one telling you that they aren’t, because he clearly doesn’t have your best interests in mind. This is what manipulative people do. They remove all forms of other support, as best as they can anyway, so that you can ‘never leave them’. This isn’t the case.
If, on the chance, no one is willing or able to help - there are resources available to you. At least, if you live in the states they are. Please look into them.
I wish you the best, and please stay safe. You are worthy of happiness. Other people’s opinions don’t matter, just your safety and happiness.
Going back to my parent’s house will completely break them. Can hear “I told you so” already ringing in my years. Also, have I told you that I spent 20 years of my life to prove my worth to my parents and that I am not a useless kid. Can’t go back to letting them down with my stupid life choices.
However modern we become the stigma of a broken marriage is too real a thing. My father recently not only lost his job but also suffered a huge financial loss. I just cannot think of adding to his depression.
Don’t worry about having kids, since we hardly ever have sex.
Just tell me ways that I can naturally die and all this ends ones and for all.
Bro, ek murder krke if 100 ki help kru toh konsa bara kam hua bolo murder toh gandi baat hah simple like that he treat you like princess when he is in good mood but bad times are the main thing na tabhi nhi kr paa rha hah toh do u think you should live with him kalko khudke bacche hongay woh kiya sikhengay so it’s better to leave him and shift with your parents they still care for you kiuki they did that time too. So go to them where you feel safe and protected. ❤️
